Thanks @CheerBear. I have mostly decided I’ll go. I didn’t speak to them today (they didn’t return my call). I’m not sure if I’ve missed out or not.
Today has has been so very mixed again. Much like yesterday but more intense. I have got through though. I kind of cracked this morning. The surprising thing for me is I’ve come through it for now. I know I’m not out of the woods but have taken steps to get out. I even asked for help from my family, they have taken my dog because I was in such a bad place. I put my suicide shirt on today. It’s the one I’ve attempted in. I’m about to take it off and put it away. No self harm or self medication (as of now). I know that sounds dramatic and I didn’t want to be a drama queen but I did this all by myself which is kind of a first.
I hope your your day with lf has been good. Haven’t been on the forum for a bit. Will read now. I know you may have unplugged. 💜🤗