not feeling good

That sounds like a delicious and nutritious breakfast @Meowmy. Presentation is only for Instagram

Walking is so good! I saw a video the other day of Tyson Fury (the heavyweight boxing champion) talking about how he overcame his low point in life a couple of years ago by just making himself go walking every day. The blood flow, the fresh air, the movement, it all helps. From there he went back into training and then won the title again! Quite an inspiring story.

Is your neighbourhood a good one for walking (sights etc)?

@Ali11 Walked a short one to newsagent to get a cord, sat for a coffee . Mum is throwing challenges my way. Thinking of may be getting a bit of space from her. But just stay focused for now. Thanks for care and support.So good.

@eudemonism I had similar experiences for a long time. I always held on some sort of hope. Very hard. I battled Suicide daily, hourly for years. Can understand thoughts of wanting to give up. Takes years to get onto right meds. Every time, I gave up and lie down, I had to pick myself up again. Mostly for me, I fought to be in the workforce.

Wish you persistent hope. Get what you need.

Will keep everyone in prayers.

@Owlunar @BlueBay @eudemonism @Ali11 @Zoe7 @Former-Member Mum has been a great support when I had been very ill. But she was never someone who would help my confidence in myself. She is older generation woman, likes to keep women low key and confident in themselves. Last couple of days, I just started to build my confidence, then she steps in to dampen it down.

I just keep a bit more space from her and spent more time in the other room in the house. See how it goes. Nothing is easy in life.

@Ali11 @BlueBay @eudemonism @Owlunar @Zoe7 @Former-Member @MDT I have an issue with relationship to a male friend. We met when we were studying at Uni. Then I caught up with ten years ago. In the worst time of my life and illness. He is a clear thinking logical man and was very helpful to see me out of the mess I was in. He is my only friend in the real world. He said a few times that he does not have an intimate relationship with me, and unlikely it will lead to marriage. But he always leave a bit of possibility to say that is not completely out. I do find this confusing some times. I often don’t know how I feel myself. Sometimes it makes me feel down. A lot just confused. Let me know what you guys think.

Friendships can certainly develop into relationships @Meowmy but it depends entirely on what you want it to be. If you just want the friendship then tell him that and if you want more then that is something you need to talk with him about too.

@Zoe7 @I definitely want the friendship and don’t mind if go towards a relationship a bit. We did try to go at relationship a bit, then he suddenly distanced himself and paused it, then he came back and make an effort to maintain the friendship. So I don’t know what he wants

That might be a conversation you need to openly have with him @Meowmy If you feel like you want more then ask him if he feels the same. It is a tricky conversation to have but one that you probably need to have if you have stronger feelings for him than just friendship.

@Zoe7 We had quite a few those conversations. He initiated them usually. But it always end up with we maintaining friendship with slight leaning towards a bit of relationship. I think that what he wants. It works ok for me but sometimes get a bit confused.