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not feeling good

not feeling good

At the moment i am not feeling good. i feel like my body is in 'run away mode'. i feel my body is running on a high, my head is so mixed up. i have to go to bed and try to sleep, but don't know if i can.

my hormones are everywhere at the moment; my mood is sky high negative. i can't deal with this anymre. all of a sudden i am not feeling good. i think it is anxiety.

i don't know why i feel like this; i just want to cry but can't becsue everyone is home. i am going to bed. i don't know what is going on. actually maybe it is anxiety because i felt like passing out today.

I went to my GP to have my mirena IUD taken out as I had had enough. But he couldn't find the string, so he sent me for a ultrasound. Had that and the guy said i had two fibroids and a cyst on my ovary. but he couldn't find the string either, so had to have an xray to find the metal piece. they didn't tell me anything. but while waiting i was so anxious i almost passed out.

so now i have to wait for tomorrow when my GP will call me at work and let me know what will happen now. hopefully he can take the mirena out. i don't know.

my body is reacting to my anxiety - i feel so shaky, i need to stop. no point telling anyone at home becasue (a) they won't believe me and (b) they prob wouldn't care.

sorry, i had to tell someone. i feel so alone 😞

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Hi @Owlunar

I didn’t realise your son had BPD. But I’m glad thst me writing on here helps you understand. I’m really I’m helping. I never realised that my writing would help anyone.

I don’t normally compare myself to others. It was just yesterday that this friend kept talking and I thought - gosh I’d love to be in their position - money, stable marriage no mortgage.

But I don’t care anymore I’m just going to be me.

I hope thst one day I can be better financially. To be honest I would really love to keep our house. It’s in a perfect position the street is quiet and there are no kids around. Most residents are couples only or have one or two adult children like us. No screaming kids around at all except for A at the moment. It’s so peaceful.

When you move away you don’t know what the neighbours are like or you he area. I don’t kniw I’m trying to not worry about selling just yet.

I write so much on here only because I need to talk to others and vent. I don’t or can’t talk to others in real life. I know your answers are always from the heart and I always love and appreciate it.

Today my D shouted coffee at a really nice winery not far from home. There were kids toys and a trampoline which A loved. Her partner didn’t come which I was disappointed but that’s his loss and my D wasn’t happy either. After dropping my D home hubby and I decided to go for a drive. It was really nice just a bit of sightseeing 😊

home niw and D wants to take A gir a walk down to the park and beach. It’s about 15 min walk. Dinner is organised hubby breadcrumbed chicken. Policeman son is coming home for dinner so it will be nice to see him.

Today has been nice.

my new work roster starts tomorrow. Wirk tomo 8.30-5.30 then thurs fri 10-2. But this week is great I only work Monday and Thursday and don’t go back until following Friday 😊 I’m happy with that.

How has your day been @Owlunar

hi 👋 @Zoe7 @Ali11 @Faith-and-Hope @Former-Member @Razzle

@Razzle @Former-Member hope you both ok. Haven’t spoken to you fir a while. Tske care. ❤️❤️

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That is where having an open conversation soon with him would be good @Meowmy Tell him you sometimes get confused and maybe work on setting some boundaries around your relationship if that would help you to know exactly where you stand more.

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Good that you had a nice day @BlueBay

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@Zoe7 Not long ago, we had that open conversation, but he just went in and out and in the end left it where it was. He is quite a good friend,also helpful in the week or so with my difficult emotional work through. May be I just let it settle and raise with him again.

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Sounds like a good idea @Meowmy

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That is a hard situation @Meowmy, and it seems like talking about it doesn't give you any clarity at all. Is a romantic relationship something that you wish to pursue with this person?

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tender hugsmy darling sister @BlueBay

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@Ali11 It has been on my mind a bit. My main concern is my MI affecting my kaotic emotions and unusual living habits and our different thinking modes. He often says his main concern is our different leisure interests. But I think it sounds a bit of cliche excuse . We probably do have enough common grounds if he really want to pursue it. Most likely neither of us is not sure what we really want at this stage. Probably let it settle and see.

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That sounds like a good plan @Meowmy.

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Thankyou my sis @Shaz51 and love and hugs back to you ❤️❤️

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