not feeling good

Hi Bluebay,

I know those feelings can arise for you a bit. I'm sorry to hear this is happening today and I trust you know this can be a warning sign for you and that you'll reach out to your supports in your plan.

Ochre.

@Former-Member

Yeah a warning sign that I’m not good. Crap pathetic person who is hopeless

i an feeling self destructive

don’t worry about me

my head is spinning with racing thoughts

@BlueBay

I know you are aware that the mind likes to run the narrative about being 'crap and pathetic' where the heart of you knows the mind likes to negative story tell.

I am going to leave you now to go ahead and contact your supports in accordance with your plan as you know those warning signs around the narrative and thoughts.

Take care and work with your plan,

Ochre

@BlueBay

Why can’t I do something right for a change. Everything I do in my life is wrong.

I so hopeless. Couldn’t get through sane helpline or lifeline.

Why am I like this?

Awake and can’t dleep

guilt snger fear hate hopelessness

helpless pain emotional

i will never learn

always me that’s wrong

no one else but me 😢😢

@BlueBay, hugs and hugs my sister

Today I enquired whether I coukd still see the financial counsellor next week. I was told no because I don’t have a health care card anymore. It just sucks

so back to square one. Stress

@Shaz51@Razzle@Owlunar @Zoe7

Oh don't blame yourself @BlueBay

What do you think you are doing that's so wrong? To me you are doing as much as you can to manage and doing really well with your house and your job and every day is such a battle for you -

I would give your credits for that

If you gave up the job would you feel any better being on disabililty? This is an honest question - if you were I think you would be entitled to a health card - I am not sure how they work and how you have come to lose yours

Losing your health card isn't your fault though - Centrelink has these rules that can brutally hard on people

But it's not your fault - it's not because you are doing anything wrong - please don't think that way

You're working as many hours as you can get - please take it easy on yourself

Dec

Hi @Owlunar

I hope you’re ok this afternoon. What time is your daughters operation.

If I was on disability pension I would love it. I could enjoy my days at home garden and eith little Ayla.

I could check it out on their website. But I’m guessing my doctor will want me to work to stay distracted.

And I don’t know if my psych would be happy either. But if it’s more money why wouldn’t I??

when I saw centrelink they told me thst I really shouldn’t have got one last year - it was their fault. I just can’t understand it.

But I blame myself because if I didn’t have a mental illness I could work more.

You’re right I’m working as much as I can.

Thinking of you ❤️