not feeling good

good idea sis @BlueBay

with kidney infections they keep getting worse , I have had lots

No @Shaz51 my mentsl health. Maybe I shouldn’t have come out of hospital so soon. I don’t know.

@BlueBay, have you tried you coping box this afternoon my sister

remember you have just had your first day back at work and you have only been home for a couple of days

my mum was a bit worried going back home after been in hospital for a week , she has been home for 1 week so far

day by day and step by step xoxoxo

good night sis @BlueBay

Today I’m angry. So angry. Why do I take meds. What the point. My dr rings me this mirning ssying don’t see me this mirning unless you have a very high temp unwell and pain. So I guess I don’t hsve kidney psin because he can tell without seeing me. WTF!

im over tiday already. I’ve been crying this morning for no particular reason.

Grrrr I just want to get bsvk at people certain people I would love to hurt. Hurt them so much more than what I’m hurting.

Supposef to go to work msybe I’ll just drive away somewhere

go away.

@BlueBay I’m hearing you !! It’s bloody hard to get decent health care. I live in a small rural town, all overseas trained drs. The good one won’t take new patients because he’s totally booked out as it is. The 2nd best is known as “Dr Howlong” because if he isn’t shoving pills down your throat, he wants to know how long you want off work to give you a certificate. (Unfortunately he’s my Dr, never follows up, screws up often) and the rest of the Drs, who knows ?? They’re there one day and gone the next .

When I broke my ankle, I was taken to the closest town to where I did it (not

my home town). Because I’d had the green whistle and a shot of morphine and wasn’t in much pain the Dr figured it was just a bad sprain, and that I could go home and then go back to a regional hospital the next day for xrays “just in case”. I heard and felt the bloody thing

snap, I knew it was broken. Then I get a bill yesterday for $180 because it happened on a weekend and a dr was called in deemed it a non emergency which means it’s not bulk billed - straight out of my pocket.

Out health system is f***ed, and I can’t see it getting any better.

I wish you could find a way to hurt those that hurt you, I feel the same way myself a lot of the time too. Jumping in your car and driving away has crossed my mind often as well. Life shouldn’t have to be this hard all the time ❤️❤️

<Right now I couldn’t care less about myself

No care at all

today is shit >

Hi Bluebay,

Just another check in to encourage you to connect with crisis services if you feel you need to today. I know you're aware of your triggers and have a safety plan in place. Please do contact Lifeline, Suicide Callback Service, Beyond Blue if you are sensing those warning signs that you are aware of.

Take care today,

Ochre.

Hi @Former-Member

Sometimes I think what’s the point