not feeling good

Hey @Zoe7

how was the pool?

ive got a terrible headache. Going back to doctor tomorrow morning yo check my blood pressure. It wouldn’t surprise me if it’s high.

What have you done this afternoon. Xx

The pool was good @BlueBay Hope your headache eases and everything goes ok at the doctor tomorrow.

Thanks @Zoe7 what are yiu hsving for dinner?

im making a zucchini slice with salad.

Don't think I'll be having anything tonight - meds early and early to sleep hopefully - been a shite afternoon and just want today to be over @BlueBay

Your dinner sounds nice - hope you enjoy it.

Morning @Zoe7 hope you slept ok ❤️

Hi @Faith-and-Hope@Shaz51 snd ithers passing by 😊

i hsve my doctors appt this morning to check my blood pressure

then I have session with psychologist

after that back at doctors to mind Ayla while my D is having an echocardiogram. Hope results come back good 🙏

thinking of you all today. Wishing a good day. 😊❤️❤️❤️

@Zoe7 Good luck today with your appts

Hope your appointments go as well as can be expected @BlueBay I know you often have a difficult time after your psych appointment so make sure you do something for yourself this afternoon too Hon

I know @Zoe7 i might go fir a walk when I come home.

You know last night I dreamt that I was at my dads funeral and I was a mess. Snd the dream woke me up snd I started sobbing tears down my face. It really shook me up.

I better go to my appt. hope your appts are ok.

Chat later. Xx

That would shake you up @BlueBay Goodluck this afternoon. Chat later

Hi @Zoe7@Owlunar@Faith-and-Hope@utopia@Shaz51@Razzle

i had my psychologist session tiday. I always feel overwhelmed and anxious cause I never know what we’ll talk about.

I told her about my recent health. I then told her about my deep anger towards my brother. Snd the dream of me going to dads funeral and I was uncontrollable.

She said the dream coukd subconsciously preparing you. She said when the times comes if I need hospital I will be supported and to just let everything go snd grieve. I told her I’m really scared of not knowing how I’ll react but from how close I sm to him and missed him so much much that I prob would need hospital support. Time will tell.

Reg the anger towards my brother. She decided to do a therspy called brain spotting. Not sure if you guys have heard if it. Basically it’s a wand eith a white little white tip at the end of it. I first have to tune into my anger. She then moves the wand very slowly from left to right snd when the intensity is strong she stops and holds the wand in that spot. I then look st the tip of the wand for a good few minutes. And then taking my eyes away snd look at the wall then back to the tip if the wand. After a little while I burst into tears. Strong emotions came up snd I wanted to run away hide under the desk She could see I was getting very emotional and distressed but after a few seconds I calmed down and looked up at the tip. We continued this fir another 15 minutes or so. Agsin I broke down and told her I csnt do it snymire snd wznted to stop. The point of brain spotting is to stsy eith thst strong emotion at that time and breathe and the intensity should reduce. At the beginning the intensity was a 10. By the end it had come down to an 8.

She said this will take time because it works on the part of the brain that holds the childhood traumas.

Its so very complicated the way the brain works and how your body reacts.

She gave me a big hug when I left snd I told her I’m so glad I found her. After all these yrs (8) I have found the right psychologist who deals with trauma.

@BlueBay It sounds very much like EMDR - where you are in the heightened moment and you follow the finger left and right. Over and over again. Worked really well with me.

You just need to practice the breathing and calming down part everyday. Then it's easier in session.