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not feeling good

BlueBaySenior Contributor15 Nov 2016, 9:06 pm AEDT

not feeling good

At the moment i am not feeling good. i feel like my body is in 'run away mode'. i feel my body is running on a high, my head is so mixed up. i have to go to bed and try to sleep, but don't know if i can.

my hormones are everywhere at the moment; my mood is sky high negative. i can't deal with this anymre. all of a sudden i am not feeling good. i think it is anxiety.

i don't know why i feel like this; i just want to cry but can't becsue everyone is home. i am going to bed. i don't know what is going on. actually maybe it is anxiety because i felt like passing out today.

I went to my GP to have my mirena IUD taken out as I had had enough. But he couldn't find the string, so he sent me for a ultrasound. Had that and the guy said i had two fibroids and a cyst on my ovary. but he couldn't find the string either, so had to have an xray to find the metal piece. they didn't tell me anything. but while waiting i was so anxious i almost passed out.

so now i have to wait for tomorrow when my GP will call me at work and let me know what will happen now. hopefully he can take the mirena out. i don't know.

my body is reacting to my anxiety - i feel so shaky, i need to stop. no point telling anyone at home becasue (a) they won't believe me and (b) they prob wouldn't care.

sorry, i had to tell someone. i feel so alone 😞

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Shaz51Senior Contributor14 Oct 2018, 1:11 pm AEDT

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sooooo glad that you had such a good time with Ayla @BlueBay

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BlueBaySenior Contributor15 Oct 2018, 6:51 am AEDT

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Hi @Shaz51@Zoe7@Faith-and-Hope@Sans911

not a good night. Woke up at 12.30 2am snd 4am. The air felt thick snd hard yo breathe. Had to use my asthma med. never happened like this before.

I’m so exhausted. I have to get up now fir work even though I don’t want to go. Love to stsy in bed.

Seeing my psychologist this afternoon. Looking forward to it so much to say.

How is everyone?

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outlanderSenior Contributor15 Oct 2018, 7:21 am AEDT

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@BlueBay 💙

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BlueBaySenior Contributor15 Oct 2018, 7:30 am AEDT

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Thanks

@outlander i was thinking of you before ❤️ How are you this morning?

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Unknown userMember15 Oct 2018, 7:35 am AEDT

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Hi @BlueBay 🌸💕

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BlueBaySenior Contributor15 Oct 2018, 7:38 am AEDT

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Hi @Former-Member

i just read your post in “good morning”. Sounds like you’ve got a busy day ❤️

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Zoe7Senior Contributor15 Oct 2018, 9:34 am AEDT

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Not great about the bad night BB - they totally suck It is good that you are seeing your sych this afternoon. Did you end up writing a list? @BlueBay

I am okay this morning - motivated to get back out into the garden today - it is another beautiful day here ...the sun is out and there is no wind

Already been to the chemist for my weekly pickup so the day is now mine

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BlueBaySenior Contributor15 Oct 2018, 12:16 pm AEDT

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Hi @Zoe7 yes I wrote a list on my phone. It’s a long list!!

I’ll let you know tonight.

Enjoy your afternoon in the garden. Xx

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Zoe7Senior Contributor15 Oct 2018, 2:30 pm AEDT

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Goodluck with your appointment @BlueBay. Do let us know how it goes. Will be thinking of your this afternoon

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BlueBaySenior Contributor15 Oct 2018, 4:53 pm AEDT

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Hi @Zoe7@Former-Member@Shaz51@Faith-and-Hope

i still have my headache. Taken two lots of pain meds but done nothing.

Had my session - whst an emotional afternoon. She asked if I wrote the letter to my brother and I told her I did on the forum. I was trying to find it fir her but couldn’t. I started to cry and it all started. The anger on my brother. How much hate I have for him. I was sobbing and she asked where in my body is the anger. I told her my hands. I felt destructive so she got me some paper and said just rip it up. I was unstoppable. I was bawling while ripping the paper.

She then made me feel my inner child within me and hug her and tell her she is ok and will be protected. Very emotional.

We talked about my fear of abandonment and also about me seeing another psychologist for free. I asked her will I ever get better. She said yes I will but it’s still a long way away. She said I hsbr a lot of pent up anger from many many years thst needs to slowly come out.

I feel totally wrecked.

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