not feeling good

@Faith-and-Hope@Zoe7@Sans911@Shaz51

Depression is here atm

don’t want to do anything

Ayla is here staying

almost ready for her bath and bed

i just feel like crying

Hug Ayla, and breathe in her beautiful baby smell @BlueBay .....

Hugs Hon ......💙🌷💕

@Faith-and-Hope@Zoe7@Sans911@Shaz51

Ayla went to sleep straightaway. She had a bath played with her toys. She drank her bottle of milk and fell asleep. All in 30 mins!!!

She will now sleep hopefully until 7am. She doesn’t wake up during the night. She’s good like that.

Both sons at work. The police officer son started at 3pm-11pm. The other son started at 4 snd will most likely finish when the supermarket closes about 10pm.

I was thinking today that my husband always thinks there has to be a reason to cry. So thst is why I don’t cry in front of him. I also remember that when his mum lived with us and she would sit snd cry hubby would get angry with her for crying. Once she told him off and said “why csnt I cry” and he replied “oh you cry sll the time” in an snger tone.

Now I know why I am the way I am at home.

What has everyone been up to today?

I did have a few beautiful cuddles today @Faith-and-Hope

she’s walking everywhere now. But this afternoon she came up to me snd wznted me to pick her up. She then put her head down for a few minutes. It was nice.

Good that Ayla went down so quickly - she must have been tired @BlueBay.

I am waiting for my sister's dog to settle - he has the wanders at the moment but it shouldn't be long until he is laying down on the couch. Toby is already asleep.

I haven't done much this afternoon as dogsitting has taken up most of the time - so watched a little tv and cooked dinner - will do the washing up a bit later when the dogs are both settled. I had to call into my sister's place to check on her cat too - haven't long gotten home - it is only five minutes away.

Tonight I am planning for an early night but that will depend on the dogs.

I hope you sleep well tonight @Zoe7 ❤️❤️

I hope you do too @BlueBay. No doubt the dogs will get me up early so a reasonably early night would be good. There is some things in the garden I want to get finished tomorrow and it is best to do it in the morning before the sun is too strong.

Good that Ayla went down so quickly my sister @BlueBay, hugs to you

@Shaz51@Zoe7@Faith-and-Hope@Sans911

i am home. Ayla left this morning. She woke up at 6.30 I put her in our bed snd had cuddles. Made some porridge for her which she ate snd then she played with her toys. Had a morning nap at 8.30 snd slept for 2 hrs!!! She is no trouble at all.

Its warm today snd im doing nothing. I’ve got no motivation or energy today. I feel very flat.

I had a bad dream that isn’t helping I keep thinking about it.

Just remembered I’ve got a session with my psychologist tomorrow afternoon. Csnt wsit. I have so much to say.

Might go now and write a list.

You are being very pro-active @BlueBay in writing the list - wtg BB

I am so glad that you had such a good time with Ayla - she realling is a shining light for you Hon and it is so wonderful to hear how you are when you are with her

I had my sister's dog until about 10 this morning then she picked him up. The house is a mess - I think he pulled out every toy, bed and blanket he could and they are all spread throughout the loungeroom - that will be my job after I finish gardening today - to pick everything up!

I hope you can find a little energy and maybe go for a walk today - what is the weather like there? It is warmer here today - perfect gardening weather.