not feeling good

@saturnzoon I’m tired of therapy sessions psychs snd meds.

It hasn’t got me anywhere yet. I’m still the same as I was 8 yrs ago. I don’t think I’ll get better this will be me forever. But my doctor doesn’t believe me. Don’t know he has so much faith in me.

I’m so depressed. Don’t think anything can cheer me up at the moment.

I understand, @BlueBay sometimes i find it hard to go to therapy sessions and take meds especially when it seems like nothing changes. Seems like you have a careing doctor there which can be very hard these days

I have my psych appointment tomorrow I'm suppose to see him every 6 weeks but the last time I saw him was January cause they cancelled last 2 appointments and then i was sick the last one. Last time i asked for different medication cause the ones im on don't seem to work anymore but he won't. He always tells me thati I will always find life difficult cause of my boys and what I've been through, so I'm glad i found the groups i go to during the week, I don't leave the house eccept for them and sometimes i have to force myself to go.

I've had this for as long as i can remember and believe i will die like it to.

I'm glad we have this sight, it helps so much when home and can either just read posts if not up to posting ourselves.

I’ve picked up another virus. And it’s now affecting my asthma.

I don’t want to be at work. Just want to go home and curl up in my blanket.

Dont want to see anyone

Taken day off work. Feeling sick with yet another virus and asthma. Rang the clinic to speak to the other doctor there as my doctor has a day off today. He said to either go to hospital or another clinic!!!!

WTF!!!

im so angry because I feel rejected abandoned and nit heard. I’m not going to another clinic because I get along with my own doctor and the female doctor. But now I’m thinking that maybe they all want me to leave the clinic and go elsewhere. I feel so upset. I’ve left a msg for my own. Doctor to ring me tomorrow snd I’ll ask him if he wants me to leave his clinic and explain what happened with the other doctor and what he said.

I know I have boundaries to only see him fortnightly but I wondering what happens when I feel sick in between the fortnight. I’ll have to ask my doctor.

I just feel hurt and not treated like a normal person. If I was normal with no mental illness I would be able to see a doctor today. But no I have to wait 2 weeks.

Laying here in the couch

nothing to do but rest

my mind is going so fast

I don’t know if I can last

I’m struggling with my asthma

but no one cares

I feel so emotional that I could cry

at the drop of a hat

dark thoughts are here with me

sll alone at home

I never knew how bad I’d get

it’s doesn’t matter

i hate so much atm

I don’t have any strength today

ti fight these thoughts

Things are feeling really distressing for you today @BlueBay. It's so difficult when you have lots of negative thoughts. You've done well to reach out for support. As a reminder, if you're concerned about your safety or you'd like counselling support, you can reach out to the following services:

Lifeline 13 11 14

Suicide Callback Service 1300 659 467

Take good care of yourself today and please do reach out for support

@Former-Member

Things are tough

and it’s hard when I’m home alone

snd especially when I’m not feeling well

I feel the struggle gets harder st times

I get lost so much

❤️ @BlueBay .....

Hi everyone

when the doctor said “you can go to another clinic “ my thoughts went straight to

they hate me

I’m a bother to them

wasting their time

it’s all my fault

they don’t want me go back to their clinic

i was upset all morning and angry. I don’t want to go to another clinic because these doctors are really good.

I was contemplating all morning do I ring this doctor and let him know I was upset at his phone call this morning. Or do I let it go tiday snd tell my own doctor tomorrow. I finally took the plunge snd called. They put me through and I told the doctor that I’ve been upset and angry all morning and needed to speak with him to let him know why.

He apologised and said it wasn’t his intention to make me upset. He explained that my own dr has put a boundary (which I understand) to see him only once a fortnight. But I can ring everyday. This doctor explained that he sbd the female dr who I saw are both nit strict with the boundary rule. But now that my dr us bsvk the rule is in place. He also suggested I stick to just seeing my own dr sll the time except when he’s away or sick.

He wants me to nit be upset because he loves seeing me at the clinic as do the receptionists and the female dr. He doesn’t want me to leave the clinic.

What they are doing is going to hrlp me in the long term.

Hi everyone

when the doctor said “you can go to another clinic “ my thoughts went straight to

they hate me

I’m a bother to them

wasting their time

it’s all my fault

they don’t want me go back to their clinic

i was upset all morning and angry. I don’t want to go to another clinic because these doctors are really good.

I was contemplating all morning do I ring this doctor and let him know I was upset at his phone call this morning. Or do I let it go tiday snd tell my own doctor tomorrow. I finally took the plunge snd called. They put me through and I told the doctor that I’ve been upset and angry all morning and needed to speak with him to let him know why.

He apologised and said it wasn’t his intention to make me upset. He explained that my own dr has put a boundary (which I understand) to see him only once a fortnight. But I can ring everyday. This doctor explained that he sbd the female dr who I saw are both nit strict with the boundary rule. But now that my dr us bsvk the rule is in place. He also suggested I stick to just seeing my own dr sll the time except when he’s away or sick.

He wants me to nit be upset because he loves seeing me at the clinic as do the receptionists and the female dr. He doesn’t want me to leave the clinic.

What they are doing is going to hrlp me in the long term.