not feeling good

Always stay positive in life. Walking away from problem is the worst thing you could do. Always remember that after every rain there is a rainbow. 🙂

I'm glad that you did ring them back @BlueBay now at least you don't have to worry about going elsewhere, and it was nice of them to let you know that they enjoy you there and helping you.

I have those types of thoughts a lot which makes going out impossible for me eccept my groups but even there sometimes when they have new people turn up my social anxiety goes sky high as my critic starts thinking they don't like me

Hi @cutekate

Thankyou for your kind words.

Snd welcome to the forum. ❤️😊

Hi @saturnzoon

it is hard when the mind starts going to the negative side with all the what if’s and thinking about what others think about ourselves. It took me hours to calm down but I’m glad I rang the dr.

I’m stressing big time. Just received a text msg from our gas company to say we owe $400. We can’t pay it. I thought all along we had direct debit. Obviously not. I can’t handle this pressure and stress.

My asthma and cough isn’t good tonight. Starting to wonder if stress aggravates asthma.

Not feeling good.

Call the gas company and arrange a payment plan @BlueBay - if you get in front of those things they are often very accomodating.

You know what makes me sngry @Zoe7 is that hubby will not organise it. He will have nothing to do with finances and it really frustrates me so much.

So I have to organise it. I’ll call them tomorrow.

You carry a lot on your shoulders @BlueBay and that is incredibly hard.

Good on you for calling them tomorrow - that will then be one less thing for you to have to worry about.

Today I had my session with my psychologist. A hard session I was crying a lot today. I felt better after the cry. I had a lot of emotions built up. We spoke about my dad health and I told her I have a lot of fear over his ailing health.

Hime now. Feeling terrible can’t stop coughing and virus is full on right now.

Think I’ll take tomorrow off work so I can rest.

Hope everyone is having a good day. ❤️

I just phoned the electricity company. apparently we don't have a direct debit payment plan set up. i am angry because i thought it was all set up. So now they said they will send me a form to apply for a relief grant for the electriicty. the gas they are waiting to see if i get the relief grant approved for that and then i can make payments at the post office.

i am so relieved yet still so angry. i know i should let the anger go - but it just makes me angry that every single time i have to do all this on my own. i stress, i get so anxious, feel sick and i have to phone and explain the whole situation. it shits me that hubby won't take control or responisbility. yet if its for his car to get serviced or something for himself he will take contgrol. that's what shits me the most.

i am so not well, this damn virus i have picked up is draining me so much to the point i just want to go to bed and cry to sleep. i have no energy. i decidced to call work and take tomorrow, i need time to get better, rest my mind, my body and try to get well. i really don't what hubby says about me taking another day off work, i just am. it if means 1 day's pay less next fortnight - well so be it. i'm not pushing my body anymore. i'm not pushing myself to the point of exhaustion because this is wehre i am at the moment.

and i am really stressed about my dad, i just hope and pray nothing happens to him. i can't lose now. 😞

he's been on my mind every single day and night.

my psychologist suggestged i write a letter or tell him in person how much i love him and thank him for everything he's done for me. but i can't, i can't tell him in words, it's too emotional. i need to stop i am crying as i am typing.

need to go.