not feeling good

Oh poor little Ayla - there is nothing worse than a sick baby - the precious little things can't tell us what is wrong - much like our fur babies @BlueBay

I can't believe she is nearly 1 BB - that year has flown - she will be running around the house in no time and I bet her Nonna will be loving the fact she can run to her for cuddles

Oh @Zoe7 I forgot To tell you

Ayla took about 3-4 steps on her own today. She then laughed thinking how good she was. Then kept wanting to walk. I think in no time she’ll walk. Yeah I csnt wait fir her to walk to me for cuddles. She already puts her arms out fir me to pick her up. She definitely knows us and even recognised our home.

That is magical @BlueBay The little sweetheart will be walking in no time then - how wonderful

I think I have already told you but I will again - Toby knows when we are nearly at my sister's or parents' place - he starts doing laps around the back of the car and makes little crying sounds. He even jumps out of the car at my parents' place - he doesn't do that anywhere else (except work when I was there with him on weekends).

Oh that is so cute @Zoe7 our fur babies are so intelligent aren’t they? Along with cheeky funny and sad and all the rest. There the best companion ❤️

Off now to watch season 6 of sons of anarchy. OMG Zoe the things that are going on it’s crazy. Horrible and terrible things - but I have to watch each episode. You get so drawn into the show and the characters.

I know @BlueBay - it is definitley not the kind of show I would have ever said I would watch but I got so drawn in too - happy (or not so happy) viewing - it gets even better in the last few series

Now I’m not doing so great

tears

fesr anxious and stressed

can I get through till tomorrow afternoon

I don’t know anymore

💓 @BlueBay ....

Hi @Faith-and-Hope@Zoe7 @Shaz51

and others reading this

I just saw my regular doctor who has come back from leave. He knew about my mental state. I told him I don’t care about anything or anyone. He asked if I’ve been in hospital. I told him no but not sure if psych will admit me. I told him I want to stop meds. He said to pls don’t stop them. He knows I’m taking far too many. He can’t give me anything fir sleeping. He said I’m in a dark hole at the moment. But it’s my confidence that is very bad. He said I don’t believe in myself I told him no one believes me. He said he does snd he knows I will get better. I have to trust him. I told him why do you believe that when I have no belief or faith in myself. He said because he knows that I can do it. I can get better it’s just that I csnt see it.

He wants me to call him tomorrow to check in I told him I’m not going to be better by tomorrow or next week or the week after. He agreed but he said one day at a time.

He thinks that hubby doesn’t know how to show concern fir me. He doesn’t know what to say.

I still don’t care about much. I walked out crying snd feel really depressed. Deflated no energy no motivation. Couldn’t care less about anything.

Im ready to scream. Tears I csnt do this anymore.

Hugs alround for everyone feeling down

@BlueBay never give up