not feeling good

Gentle hugs @saturnzoon ..... hearing you ❤️

@Zoe7

Thank you Zoey for your thoughtfulness, i know my limits on meds and did not take enough to warrent hospital, just to try and calm down and stop crying, my big issue is my memory is so poor i never remember things unless i have it written down, and i did have trouble with my older son earlier so i think you may be right the combination of the whole day just seemed to get worse and looks like not being able to continue watching my series and the fox not working must just have put me over the edge and lossing it

I find it is often those everyday things that do not work right in the moment - like your fox shows - that can send me into a meltdown too @saturnzoon - we get so good at protecting ourselves with the 'big' issues that the little things become bigger than they would otherwise be. I can see how disappointed you are with what has happened with your show - something you were looking forward to is not working and that is triggering in itself. I hope the meds have helped you calm a little - we all need that little bit of help sometimes - whether it be meds, a cup of tea, a walk, to throw something (safely lol) etc.

you have also done a wonderful thing by reaching out here - not easy when you feel things are a bit out of control - so well done for doing that. Are your sons expected home soon?

@Faith-and-Hope

Thank you faith - and-Hope,it helps so much knowing people care and offer help andcomfort

So cute @Faith-and-Hope

thankyou ❤️

@Zoe7

My son has come back from his footy training, my other one comes home about 10ish, but they don't understand or help much, even when my one home now is my carer, he still doesn't help properly as my carer, i have given him information about my disabilities and groups he could attend to help but he won't go and i have noone else that could go career and i really need one, i don't know what others do when you have no family in same state or friends to help

I live on my own @saturnzoon so I have to do most things for myself. I can't rely on anyone else to do anything for me as I have been constantly let down in this regard. I have a strained relationship with my family and they don't know what I have been dealing with. I feel my sister and I have become closer over the last few months however - maybe that is because she has seen I can't physically do what I used to be able to do and what effect that has had on me. It is soul destroying when we lose our independence so I can only summise that you are feeling this loss having to have a carer - and for that carer not to do the things he needs to do to help you on top of YOU having to deal with what you do is very difficult. I am very thankful for this forum and the wonderful people on here to help with feeling alone at times - and just as they are here with me often - we are here for you too

Hi @Zoe7@Faith-and-Hope@Former-Member@Shaz51@utopia

i had a terrible night sobbing. Now have a throbbing headache. Woke up before and sobbing agsin. I csnt do this. I'm tired. I can't keep going.

I'm struggling and I just can't keep going. I'm so sad and depressed.

I don't know what to do.

Hi @BlueBay, i'm sorry to hear you are struggling this morning and hope your day improves. i know you are aware of your safety/management plan and just want to remind you to refer back to this today. Please let us know if you need a copy of this again. Remember you have gotten through rough times in the past and managed. I am aware there are people who support you on the forum and the mods are here as well. Take care

Regards Traveller

Thankyou @traveller

I just don't have any energy to keep going. I'm mentally and physically exhausted. And I have to go to work and do a 4 hr shift. I wish I could stay home in bed