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not feeling good

BlueBaySenior Contributor

not feeling good

At the moment i am not feeling good. i feel like my body is in 'run away mode'. i feel my body is running on a high, my head is so mixed up. i have to go to bed and try to sleep, but don't know if i can.

my hormones are everywhere at the moment; my mood is sky high negative. i can't deal with this anymre. all of a sudden i am not feeling good. i think it is anxiety.

i don't know why i feel like this; i just want to cry but can't becsue everyone is home. i am going to bed. i don't know what is going on. actually maybe it is anxiety because i felt like passing out today.

I went to my GP to have my mirena IUD taken out as I had had enough. But he couldn't find the string, so he sent me for a ultrasound. Had that and the guy said i had two fibroids and a cyst on my ovary. but he couldn't find the string either, so had to have an xray to find the metal piece. they didn't tell me anything. but while waiting i was so anxious i almost passed out.

so now i have to wait for tomorrow when my GP will call me at work and let me know what will happen now. hopefully he can take the mirena out. i don't know.

my body is reacting to my anxiety - i feel so shaky, i need to stop. no point telling anyone at home becasue (a) they won't believe me and (b) they prob wouldn't care.

sorry, i had to tell someone. i feel so alone 😞

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Faith-and-HopeSenior Contributor

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You have had a big week this week @BlueBay, and that was so well done today, as traumatic as it was .......

I had to do something like that with a counsellor at one point ...... but ai actually had someone standing behind me with their arms around me taking in my ear ....... putting a voice to how I was feeling about someone who was not treating me well ...... and I didn’t know how to express how I was feeling. I had never had to talk to someone like that before and didn’t know how to start ..... but it made a huge difference to managing my emotions afterwards, especially as that person was an ongoing part of my life and I had to construct strong boundaries within the relationship.

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BlueBaySenior Contributor

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I'm not hungry. All I want to do is curl up in bed and sleep. My fatigue is not good. I slept for 2 hrs after my session today. Hubby is making dinner with chicken and veggies but I can't stomach anything. I feel weak. I'm so emotional but bottling it up because everyone's home. I'm sitting alone.
I told my therapist I wanted to take extra meds last week. She said thst wouldn't help. During the session I told her I had to run away. She asked who was chasing me. I told her my brother. She said you are not a child anymore you're a married adult tell him to go away you don't want to see him. Tell him to go.
I'm overwhelmed now. I'm not thinking properly thoughts are going through my head. Negative I'm dissociating at times in my own little world. It's easy from reality. I'm scared.

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BlueBaySenior Contributor

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Darkness is scary. It's the blackness of the night thst scares me. It's the loneliness and quietness the stillness. I can't handle this anymore. I will never get better. This is me for live for ever. I'll never live a happy life. My life is full of trauma and depression and lots of negative thoughts of running away and Sh.
There's no point me therapist is helping because she can't help me My psych can't help me either. And my gp -well he prob doesn't want to see me anymore. After the many phone calls and visits he'll be sick of me.
@Faith-and-Hope @Zoe7 @Shaz51 why do you guys stay around and support me. It doesn't matter if you don't want to help me anymore.
I feel so dam. Emotional. Can't do this anymore.

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Shaz51Senior Contributor

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because I love and care for you my sister @BlueBay forever sitting with you xxxxx

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BlueBaySenior Contributor

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Thankyou @Shaz51 you're so caring and a nice friend to me. You have always been by my side. I'm crying I csnt do this. It's all too much
@Former-Member I'm so overwhelmed confused full of emotions and very depressed and exhausted.

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Hi @BlueBay,

It sounds like a very hard time. I can hear that you need support. Im sending you an email. As always @Shaz51 your care for others is not unnoticed.

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Faith-and-HopeSenior Contributor

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Just sending you some loving thoughts @BlueBay ...... 💕💕💕💕💐

I have been out tonight. I am home now, but it’s late and I hope you have gone to sleep to rest your tired body and mind ......

Hugs n hugs Hon ..... this stage of things will pass ...... your go will not tire of you because he understands your trauma and mental health needs ...... and if you keep working with your therapists things can improve progressively ..... but it does take hard work and perseverance, and we are here to walk along with you because we can, and because we care .......

Sleep now sweetheart ....... rest .....

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BlueBaySenior Contributor

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Thankyou @Shaz51 and @Faith-and-Hope for your love and support.
I wasn't in a good headspace last night. I'm better this morning after sleeping last night. Although I'm still frightened thst my GP will abandon me. I need to speak with him to hear it from him that he won't.
@Faith-and-Hope I forgot to say the other day thankyou for sharing your story about your session with your therapist. It's hard to go through but it makes it easier when you have a good and trusting therapist who believes in you.
I'm off to work soon only doing 4 hours. Finish at 2pm. Going to take things slow. I am losing weight as I'm still not eating properly although I could do with losing some weight but I guess not like this.
I hope you both have a nice day. Chat later
BB xxxooo

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Faith-and-HopeSenior Contributor

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I know you’re still not great @BlueBay ....but that is sounding much better than last night .....

Hugs ❤️

Dont forget to notice small things of joy in your day. The can be the tiniest of things, but if they bring a fleeting smile, they count ❣️

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BlueBaySenior Contributor

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@Faith-and-Hope @Shaz51 @Zoe7
@Former-Member I need help

I had a shit day at work. My so called friend at work was so caught up in her world thst she didn't even ask what happened to me the other day. Not even if I feel better now. So I ignored her all day. She is so self centred she shits me. I'm so over people like her.
I rang my GP at lunchtime and cried on the phone. I told him I'm not coping and was scared thst he would abandon me because of all the phone calls and visits. He assured me he would not abandon me he said he is here to help me snd he will answer my calls all the time. If he csnt he will always call back. He said I'm going through a tough patch at the moment but he will help me get through it. He said I was better st the end of last year start of this year but deteriorated while in hospital that's why he doesn't think I shld go back in.
I want to ring him agsin and tell him I'm over my life I want to ........ I csnt cope with feeling so depressed all the time. I want to tell him I csnt continue like this. I need help.
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