not feeling good

Hi @BlueBay

how are you going today? hope you're having a good day,

take care,

lj

Hi @Former-Member@Shaz51@Decadian@utopia@Change123

I'm not that great tonight, i have a really sore lower back. Could be from work??

Work has been busy which is a distraction I guess, but I have been very tired. Last night hubby, me and the kids caught up with my uncle and aunty to have pizza together. This is the one that we have just started talking to again after my parents had some stupid argument (prob my mum's fault). They haven't seen my kids for at least 20 yrs so it was really special for them and us. They asked the kids lots of questions about their work, and uni. And it was nice for the kids too.

My asthma is still playing up, sounding like a bronchitis type cough or a smokers cough (but i have never smoked before).

Photos of house are all done now and it will probably go on internet tomorrow. I;m thinking we may have an open for inspection this weekend or one day during the week. I really hope we sell for the price we want.

So much happening at the moment, my son is having his last police interview for recruitment tomororw in the city. Hubby is taking day off work to go in with him for moral support. I so hope he gets in; it will mean so much to him. But if not he will reapply in a year's time.

I sort of feel down, i think i am thinking about my dad and his upcoming birthday. I know i need to think about myself but it's really hard when i miss him so much and it will be his 80th. I did think for a split second that maybe i would send a birthday card and voucher, but then I thought - no way she will return it like she did last time. and then that would mean more pain and hurt for me. i can't go through that again.

we are finally catching up with our old neighbours (haven't seen them for 2 yrs when they surpirsed me at my 50th, hadn't seen them then for at least 20 yrs!!!). we are going out for dinner on saturday night.

But i keep feeling anxous and thern want to cancel the dinner. My back is sore, think i need to go and lay down with a heat pack.

Appt tomorrow afternoon with my psychologist, looking forward to that. But also a bit nervous.

Hope everyone is okay tonight. xxxooo

@BlueBay

It sounds like you had a busy day at work and have a lot happening with the selling of your house.

I am sorry to hear about how hurt you feel about your Dad- I am not sure if this would work but you could send the parcel registered mail and that way he needs to sign for it.

I hope you get some rest tonight and the heat pack gives you some relief.

You do sound exhausted @BlueBay. Are you going to try to get to sleep now? If so, is there anything that helps you relax to get to sleep?

I hope you've found a more comfortable position @BlueBay. Sounds like sleep is what you need right now although I understand it is really hard to fall asleep sometimes! I hope your back is feeling better in the morning.

I have confidence that you will be able to manage the cleaning and seeing your psychologist - calling the CAT team is protecting yourself, your psychologist shouldn't (and hopefully won't) be angry about that, they are there to help you.

Hi @BlueBay

You've got so much happening right now - one thing after another

Oh boy - this is tough

But there is one thing you can take control of - you don't need to worry about what other people think of you - or whether they will be angry about what you might or might not have done

Honestly - other people are usually too busy worrying about what you think of them - it's something you can cross of your list

You can do something about your house - as hard as the work is and how much you still have to do -

You can't do anything about your mother though you could send your father a present by registered mail

Your financial situation is something you can work on

You can talk about your situation with your psyche with your psychologist

So through our lives there are things were can change and things we cannot - and then we have to figure out the difference - but for sure - there is nothing we can do about the way other people think of us

I would never feel ashamed about how hard you have worked to reach out for help when you have needed it - that is not at all wrong - you have not been treated all that well by your psyche so all these other people have got involved as you have been thrashed around in the washing machine of life surviving

Here's the thing to be proud of - you are surviving - and you can be proud of that

Anyway - I can tell the people writing to you here are not angry with you - I really admire you for seeking help -

All the best - and try and not worry

Dec

Hi @BlueBay

I hope you feel better, I'm not much support at the moment extremely exhausted as we are also dealing with selling my partners mum's house for payment of her going into a nursing home and she lives a couple of hours away. We spent the whole day yesterday going through her stuff and it was so emotionally, physcially and mentally draining. I probably shouldn't be a t work as my brain isnt functioning.

Didnt want you to think I was ignoring you.

I'm thinking of you!