not feeling good

❤️ @BlueBay .....

Hi @BlueBay ..... I agree with @Shaz51, that your Dad being in hospital was probably unsettling for you, with all the associations you have with hospital, and also your care for your Dad.

I hope today is okay, that J is more settled after a weekend of expressing her anger ..... and things feel a little more do-able. Probably that side of your personality is frustrated about having to behave during work hours, and with family around, but that is also probably a good discipline for her, despite the fact that she doesn’t like it. There are many ways she needs support to grow within you, parenting support that she didn’t receive at the time she needed it .... but you can give it now. Be understanding, but firm, and keep boundaries in place around her ..... and taking yourself off to have and angry tantrum time with her is an okay thing too - crying into your pillow, or in the shower, and letting some of the pain and anger out.

Hugs @BlueBay ..... 💙🐚💕

@Faith-and-Hope

Hugs @BlueBay

I just cant win. I have just come home from my sisters and rang my psych to ask if they have put me on the waiting list at the hospital for early next month.

I could hear myh husband in the next room mumbling and I heard very clearly him say 'great now she is going in there and we'll have no money. I hung up and wqalked into the nesxt room and asked what's wrong, he rpelied oh nothing. That's rubbish because I heard it clearly.

So he hates me going in, so how i am meant to get better.

Now i am really angry, J is angry very angry at him. i want revenge again. i am so pissed off.

Maybe J should sh to show him just exactly how painful and hurt i am. and i am not coping

That's good you called your psych @BlueBay you know what you need.

It is okay to feel angry about his lack of reply, are you able to do something to let the anger out and then talk to your husband again another time about how you are feeling, sometimes yelling into a pillow or going for a walk helps me to calm down. Best to try talking again when you are more calm.

@Former-Member he just makes me really angry with his stupid remarks.

i don't say stupid comments like he does. Does he know that if i don't go into hospital and change meds i will NOT get better.

he doesnt understand mental illness and never will. he thinks he gets it but he doesn't and it frustrates the crap out of me.

i am sick of trying to explain it to him. it goes in one ear and out the other.

i am having a coffee and choc cake with heaps of cream (emotional eating).

i can't talk to him because he will not understand; he gets angry with me so there is no point

J is really annoyed and wish i could escape