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not feeling good

not feeling good

At the moment i am not feeling good. i feel like my body is in 'run away mode'. i feel my body is running on a high, my head is so mixed up. i have to go to bed and try to sleep, but don't know if i can.

my hormones are everywhere at the moment; my mood is sky high negative. i can't deal with this anymre. all of a sudden i am not feeling good. i think it is anxiety.

i don't know why i feel like this; i just want to cry but can't becsue everyone is home. i am going to bed. i don't know what is going on. actually maybe it is anxiety because i felt like passing out today.

I went to my GP to have my mirena IUD taken out as I had had enough. But he couldn't find the string, so he sent me for a ultrasound. Had that and the guy said i had two fibroids and a cyst on my ovary. but he couldn't find the string either, so had to have an xray to find the metal piece. they didn't tell me anything. but while waiting i was so anxious i almost passed out.

so now i have to wait for tomorrow when my GP will call me at work and let me know what will happen now. hopefully he can take the mirena out. i don't know.

my body is reacting to my anxiety - i feel so shaky, i need to stop. no point telling anyone at home becasue (a) they won't believe me and (b) they prob wouldn't care.

sorry, i had to tell someone. i feel so alone 😞

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I hate her so much she is do controlling and evil. I don't care anymore if we don't talk. It's over.
But I'll miss my dad. If this happens I think I'll need a break in hospital.

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I'm feeling sick in my stomach. That horrible nervous feeling. I hate it. Nauseous feeling.

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That sounds really tough you feel that sick in the stomach feeling, is that to do with talking to your mum? I think it is good you ask her directly @BlueBay just remember to breathe and look after yourself, can you talk to anyone about what you will say first, maybe your sister?

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Hi @Former-Member

I think I am nervous but not sure what. I did end up calling my mum not long ago. She told me dad was operated today and that there were no visitors today. OK that makes sense. I asked if he is still in hospital tomorrow and she replied she wasn't sure that she would let me know. She was actually polite to me on the phone.

So, that's okay. i will wait for her phone call. I have a feeling that becasue of my mentall illness she now knows to tread lightly as I can go into hsoptial whenever she treats me badly as it happened last time.

I don't know i have this sick feeling like something bad is going to happen. I have been feeling nauseous all day at work. My back is still sore from last week. i am seeing a physio tomorrow morning. hopefully he can help me with my sore back and look at the x-rays.

@Former-Member i feel scared and like a child inside of me at the moment. i feel like i need to run away like a child. i feel i need to hide from someone.

Apparently my brother (one of the abusers) wants to visit my dad and i am scared that he may be there tomorrow if i go and see my dad. what do i do? i am feeling sick. - ok so this is the reason??

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It definitely sounds like the reason to me @BlueBay ..... take care of yourself ....

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sounds like the reason to me too @BlueBay

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Holding my pillow tightly and sobbing
Csnt control my emotions tonight
Everything is everywhere
I need a proper mum who loves me and hugs me
And cares for me
Not my mum
Another mum
I want someone else
Sobbing so much
It's too hard to keep going
@moderstor can I chat

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Hi @BlueBay I'm so sorry to hear you're struggling so much tonight. Are you able to call Suicide Callback service or Lifeline for some extra support to help you stay safe?

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No I can't @Former-Member I'm in my bedroom and I'm hugging my pillow crying. I am scared about something.
I can't.
I need to escape. I need to hide. The child in me needs to hide. They don't want to be found.

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I just need to hug something tight. I need to feel hugged.
I can't stop sobbing. I'm exhausted.
I'm scared. I'm tired.
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