not feeling good

Take care @Faith-and-Hope'

hugs @BlueBay

hi everyone

things are not good, i am not coping. it seems to be most day when i am home alone that i struggle. i can't do anything right.

i am a mess crying, wanting to run away, disappear forever and never come back

the overwhelming feeling it's hard to cope with

the stupid doctor who puts boundaries and rules - i hate him too

Hi there @BlueBay

I am guessing you are home alone today as you seem to be not coping very well, can you tell us a bit more about what is overwhelming you, it might help to talk it through a little more so we can support you ?

@Former-Member

i hate my doctor for putting rules and boundaries on me. i can only see him fortnightly. i need to see him more often.

i feel overwhelmed because i have so much going on in my head. too much to think of. work, home life, kids, everything is getting to me. and i want to disappear. i could easily self harm right now

i could easily take something

when i call my gp to tell him i am not coping or not feeling well - he says 'it will pass, you will be fine' just do something to distract yourself. how many tmes do i have to disgtract myself. i try and it never works.

It does work for you @BlueBay but it is only when you take that step back that this can happen. Try looking from the outside at the you that is presenting now - the negative self and then try to substitute the 'real' you - they are very different - you need to find a way to bring out the 'real' you - the compassionate, caring, intelligent little flower that I have grown so fond of.

See if you can give that a go...

@Zoe7

i am looking at it from my inner child and i am sobbing. i am crying so much because i want love, i want to be cared for

i need to be nurtured and there is no one around

maybe if i sh i will be cared and nurtured and loved

i just want someone to take care of me

I know you do BB - try to let the adult YOU tell the child YOU that you are safe now and loved @BlueBay

In turn you love - you love your husband, your kids, your granddaughter, and that is precious.

We both know self-harming is not the answer - it is a temporary 'fix' with longer term consequences.

I am happy to sit here with you and 'listen' as you talk through anything that is on your mind my little yelow flower

@Zoe7

i just want to be hugged, loved

i want a big hug

i want to cry on someone's shoulder

i want to feel loved

i want to hold a toy like i did when i was a child

i want to be a child again

i am sobbing i can't do this

@Zoe7 stay with me pls

@BlueBayremember that you do care and that is more important. @Zoe7 is right.

Flowers are for you and your daughter and child. Keep your maternal link going.