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not feeling good

not feeling good

At the moment i am not feeling good. i feel like my body is in 'run away mode'. i feel my body is running on a high, my head is so mixed up. i have to go to bed and try to sleep, but don't know if i can.

my hormones are everywhere at the moment; my mood is sky high negative. i can't deal with this anymre. all of a sudden i am not feeling good. i think it is anxiety.

i don't know why i feel like this; i just want to cry but can't becsue everyone is home. i am going to bed. i don't know what is going on. actually maybe it is anxiety because i felt like passing out today.

I went to my GP to have my mirena IUD taken out as I had had enough. But he couldn't find the string, so he sent me for a ultrasound. Had that and the guy said i had two fibroids and a cyst on my ovary. but he couldn't find the string either, so had to have an xray to find the metal piece. they didn't tell me anything. but while waiting i was so anxious i almost passed out.

so now i have to wait for tomorrow when my GP will call me at work and let me know what will happen now. hopefully he can take the mirena out. i don't know.

my body is reacting to my anxiety - i feel so shaky, i need to stop. no point telling anyone at home becasue (a) they won't believe me and (b) they prob wouldn't care.

sorry, i had to tell someone. i feel so alone 😞

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I'm not going to leave you here @BlueBay.

Grab a pillow and hold on to it tightly while we chat BB

Tell me all about little Ayla - I bet she is growing very quickly...

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I'm not going to leave you here @BlueBay toooo my awesome friend , I care very much about you , soo sending you hugs

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@Zoe7

Ayla is 5 months old, she is eating some veggies and fruit

she is soooo cute, she smiles and loves to chat (just like her mum)

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I bet her Nanna could talk up a storm too @BlueBay lol

i can't believe she is 5 months old - that time has flown by - before you know it she will be walking and then able to run into your arms BB

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@Zoe7 i can't wait for her to be a bit older and she can run up to me and i will give her the biggest hug ever. and also take her to the park down the road, play on the swings. it will be so much fun

thanks @Zoe7 and @Appleblossom xxoo

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Ayla is 5 months old, wow @BlueBay , what a wonderful age

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i;m going to log off for now

i am still upset; i need to sit on my own for a while

i can't shake this sadness i have

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I think I want to come to the park with you @BlueBay I could bring Toby - I wonder if he would stay on the swings with me or jump off - I think as long as he was sitting on my knee he would probably stay there while I swang. We could all swing together - wouldn't that be cool

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i am so alone

why is my life like this

i don't know

why are my parents the way they are

they don't care about me

i try so damn hard to be good for them

but it just never changes

i always get hurt

deeper and deeper each time

why do i get sucked in

i don't know why i do it to myself

i never understand them

i just wanted good parents

to hug and love me

😞 😞 😞

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Look at it this way @BlueBay - a year ago you did not even have any contact with your parents. This year you not only have contact with them but were able to spend some time with your Dad on his birthday and that is something that you have longed to do for many, many years - that is huge!

You cannot change what has happened to you BB - neither of us can - and although you cannot change those horrible things you still have made a wonderful life for yourself with amazing kids and now an amazing little grand daughter - that is something to celebrate... and you have done that so you are worth celebrating Today is just a tough day that I know you will get through because it takes enormous strength and courage to have done everything you have done in your life despite what has happened to you - I am always so proud of my little yellow flower - today as much as any other day because you have reached out for support

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