not feeling good

They are probably on your head @Catcakes that is where I usually find mine LOL

oh that sucks @Catcakes My eye sight has deteriorated along with the rest of my body since I first became ill. The sensitivity to light has also had an impact.

@Catcakes It has taken 18 months for me to get to this point of few side effects from meds. We have tried so many different ones over that time and several have made me extremely sick - and I won't say what one did to me - but I am still here

I haven't slept for more than one night at a time for over 20 years - so getting around 6 hours sleep a few nights in a row is very foreign to me. Now I just need the nightmares and flashbacks to stop and I may have a chance of moving forward. Right now I still can't see it but there is a little hope where I had none before.

oh bugger @Catcakes that super sucks

I am starting to lose focus so might need to try to sleep soon - so if I suddenly disappear you will know why

Hi everyone @Zoe7@Faith-and-Hope@Former-Member@Shaz51

I have just come home from work. Went to chiro for my back. still a little inflammed.

i am over working, i went to work and a lady who was on leave for 2 weeks came back tyoday. she and another girl were chatting together and completely ignored me. they didn't include me in their conversation which was a general conversation. It is only the three of us in the shop.

i felt so hated, not cared for. i am angry. they are all size 8-10 in the uniform. which we just ordered today. i had to order a size 16 skirt and a size 18 shirt. i have never in myu life worn a size 18. i know the shirts are small fit. i feel like a big fat cow. that's how i feel right now. but those two ladies were parading with their size 8 skirts and shirts.

i was crying in the tea room and quickly had to wipe away my tears in fear they would see me.

i left work and cried in the car and on the way home.

i am now home drinking a cup of coffee. but am still angry and emotional. i don't want to go to work tomorrow.

i am seeing my GP tomorrow morning before work. lots to talk about with him tomorrow.

wish i could pack my bags and run away

i just want peace and quiet just for me, just me alone

Hi @BlueBay ..... yep ..... that’s the sort of situation that presses all your buttons and gets you feeling so angry, upset and terrible, and wanting to run away .....

See if you can do what @Zoe7 said yesterday and take that step back for a moment .....

Who is responding here ?

Is it your angry child lashing out with all those feelings and wanting some validation here ?

Wrap your arms around her with your adult self @BlueBay and soothe and calm her ..... tell her that she matters ..... tell her that the other staff ought to have at least said hello (maybe your adult self can do that first next time) so that they know you can be friendly, in case they are thinking you want to keep to yourself .....

I am glad you have made yourself a cup of coffee cos that is self-care .....

My mr. is on the warpath today, so I am sitting and stitching my blanket together, and I think I will make myself a coffee to drink with you now ...... and try to let the big waves roll on past me too ......

@Faith-and-Hope

I have calmed down a bit, it is the angry person in me that is so enraged with what happened today. I feel so left out all the time. and it hurts.

I am a caring nice person, not a nasty person. never.

Hubby has just come home, i need teo work out what to have for dinner. maybe a thai dish??

hope you are okay while your hubby is on his warpath. it must be so hard for you

take care F&H

BB xxoo