not feeling good

No @BlueBay

It won't be easy - it would be hard regardless but you have all this other stuff happening

Not only that - you are clearing and cleaning to dispose of the house that belonged to your parents - that has to be hard - that will be working psychologically as well - and no wonder the task is daunting

Man - I hate all of that stuff

Also - one thing you don't have to worry about is your psyche hating you. He has been trained not to do that - he is a professional and he has to know that you have suffered all this and a lot of it has to do with his incompetence - years ago - decades ago - I had better treatment from a psychiatrist - and was frequently admitted to hospital when I burned out - and I was well past doing the work you seem to cope with well, vacuuming and mopping a large house - our house was moderately sized and I was not at all lazy but then things overcame me I was totally useless - I could not manage at all - I was exhausted and my weight - at 170 cm I weighed 48 km and I was eating properly - well - and not sick at all - just exhausted with the way my son was

So - I really don't understand your psyche at all - hey - do you hate him for the way he has treated you and if you do - do you think he will care about that? People hate the way people treat them all the time - you don't have to worry about him at all

Easy for me to say

I was tired and flat and couldn't get on with the day at all - after nightmares last night - and during the day I realised that it's the 2nd anniversary of my mother's death.The nightmares weren't about her - at least I don't think they were. One was so bad I was shouting at someone and when I was half awake I was still mumbling at them - whoever it was -

The past is always there - it is in our memories - but I can tell you from experience they will not haunt you forever the way they do now. But they are there and always will be - they are part of who you are now

And all this work you have been doing is part of you too - a good part

It's not easy - we all know that - and also - you can pay moving companies to pack at lot of your stuff - but that's not the hard part - it's selling the house first -

Dec

Hi @Decadian

Have you ever tried calling Telstra? OMG!!!! It's like talking to a brick wall

We had the guy come this morning to take photos of house, all good. We worked our butts off over the weekend to make it look really nice and it did. He suggesgted we take a few extra things off the kitchen and bedrooms which was helpful.

So now we wait for the ad to go live on theh internet and off we go with open for inspection days. For the nexgt 4 weeks.

I am about to write my letter to my psych for tomorrow. I will be telling him how hurt, angry and frustrated I am with all these med changes and hospital admission, as well as coming off the new med he prescribed.

I am resting today as im stuffed from the weekend. xxxx

Hi also to @Shaz51@Zoe7@Former-Member@Former-Member@Former-Member@utopia@Former-Member @Former-Member@Faith-and-Hope @NikNik 🙂

@BlueBay YOU DID IT my friend - you should be so proud of yourself. Rest up - you deserve it

Hi @Zoe7

I need to calm myself down i am so ANGRY. I just received a chq from Medicare paying for my chest xray and echo that I had done while i was in hospital. Now i am out of pocket $180, but none of this was explained to me when i was admitted. So i just phoned MIA Radiology and told them i am angry that the hospital didn't explain this to me; had I know i would have gone to an bulk bill place. i am also pissed off with my psych, he should have known. he knows we are struggling financially. it just makes me angry when these doctors order these tests and you are not covered in a private hospital. Medibank private covered only $60.oo out of the two tesgts. One test cost $350 and they only paid $50.

Why, i am so pissed off. i am really angry at the moment.

MIA have said i can bring the cheques in to them and can set up a payment plan. But that isn't the point, the piont is no one ever told me i would be out of pocket. And those tesdts were for me to see that my heart was okay to take new med that psych wanted me to - which now i have stopped because of the side effefgts. So this whole thing has cost me more than my excess of hospital stay. Gosh i need to take a breath.

@BlueBay I want to scream out lots and lots of swear words for you!!! That is so unfair

Your psych seems like they need to take a good hard look at themselves!! I hope you add that into the letter you are writing. Maybe time to lay in all out for them - not just for yourself - but so he/she can see what impact a lack of attention has upon their clients. Perhaps it's a good time to think about a change for your own peace of mind and wellbeing. I know you have been thinking about this for a while anyway.

I find it so frustrating that our health and wellbeing is often so closely linked to what we can afford - the system really sucks

When is your appointment with psych?

@Zoe7

My appt is tomorrow afternoon. I just want to cry so much. I can't deal with all of this again. it's like one problem after another.

Oh don't worry I will be writing that in my letter as well. I am SO ANGRY. It's just not fair.

oh no 😞 that sucks!!! it is so frustrating that these things cost so much 😞 and i agree it should have been exlained to you first! how can they charge you for something you didnt even have any awareness of that you were purchasing 😞

I agree @Zoe7 its hard to get care... on one oft he sane fact sheets somewhere it talks about how people who recieve optimal treatment do well.. but many people miss out on optimal treatment because of finances, or location... but we all know that society is definitely unfair i guess...

hugs to you @BlueBay

lj

@BlueBay You have every right to be angry my friend.

You have come so far in the last week - to be experiencing anger AND writing that letter - WOW - that is amazing. Don't let the inactions of others (psych) get in the way of what you have accomplished over the last few days. Yoiu have done an amzing job. I know the money thing is a real concern but there is not much you can do about that now (except organise a payment plan!). Keep being the amazingly strong and capable person I have grown to learn you are Your ability to get back up and keep moving forward is an inspiration to me and I would suggest many others as well. So proud to walk with you my friend

Hi @Former-Member

How are you doing at the moment?

Thanks @Former-Member and @Zoe7

I know there is nothing i can do - but i will remember this for next time. i am not getting caught a second time. It's so wrong for a private hsopital to not explain this to their patients. And i am pretty sure that my psych and the GP i saw in there would have know about the extra cost. That makes me angry.

i have written letter to my psych and it'ws an angry letter. and to be honest i don't cvare anymore if he is annoyed, angry or frustrated with me. i have every right to be angry with him.

think i need a coffee 🙂