not feeling good

hello @BlueBay

yes phantom of the opera full blast all doors and windows open

thinking of you

@BlueBay You are doing an amazing job my friend - Keep it up - Nearly done

As @Former-Member said: Truly Inspirational

Hello @Former-Member, @Former-Member, @utopia

thank you for the hugs

Thank you @Former-Member, If I just don`t eat , I think i will be ok xx

Hi @BlueBay

You are reminding me how much I hate moving - and getting the house prepared to sell

And - among my other forgotten memoriesd - the terrible state of some houses I saw when we were looking for a property - even for rental - they can be disgusting

People must be totally without thought -but you are doing your best there -

Whew - and we have had some hot weather lately too

Thinking of you

Dec

Hi @Decadian

I'm exhausted, i cannot do anymore. I have had it. With little sleep last night, I don't know where the energy came today to do what I did. I am so tired.

The CAT team clinician called me before to see how i was going. I told him about the ambulance being called on Sat early morning and with my asthma it then turned to anxiety. I told him how anxious i am at the moment with the house selling and packing, moving and buying. He said just think of tonight and what you need to do to get through tonight. He said it's easy to say what to do but when youre overwhelmed with all these extra thoughts I become in a position of needing help or crisis.

He said they will call my psych and let him know what happened. I told him that i wasn't too happy with my psych and he replied to just talk to him and let him know. I said i can't for fear of being hated by him. He asked can i write it down and hand it to him, i said yes i can do that. So tomorrow i will write everything from my heart as to why i am not happy eg. so many changes of meds since July, the latest admission with the addition of a med that had to be carefully controlled and it wasn't because the ward closed down for christmas. but there was no follow up from him or the hospital as to another admission. and how i feel that he is annoyed/angry that i have rung the CAT team a few times this week. just the tone of his voice when he called me the other day. he needs to know how i feel and if i am still not happy after that session, well i may have to look for someone else.

We have had some horrible hot weather, but am glad that today was a nice change.

@Decadian I don't know if i have the energy to keep going, packing, open for inspections, keepign the hosue tidy for the next four weeks, not that the hosue is ever messy but it's not tidy at times. so have to make sure the kitchen bench is clean and empty. OMG i dont know how i am going to do it. And work/; and deal with everything else.

Wish I had some extra pair of hands, kids did the bare minimum, boys did help outside with mowing the lawn today and going to the tip with hubby. Daughter's boyfriend came over to patch up to small holes in daughters room that were made from a shelf that fell. So that's done.

I still feel overwhelmed. It's not going to be easy the next month.

Hi @Shaz51

How are you feeling tonight? And hubby how is he?

I hope you are feeling a little better, (hugs to you) xxx

thank you @BlueBay for the hugs my friend xx

Hubby is ok , he is saying I might have GERD or Gallbladder playing up

so I am going to see if i can get a appoinment this week with the doctor

Oh that's no good. Good luck with your appt with the doc. xxx