not feeling good

I JUST WANT TO SCREAM.......

Hi @Faith-and-Hope

I missed out on 2 jobs that I applied for. I am in that 'destructive mode' at the moment. You know the one - scream, punch, hit, kick, run away, disappear forever. It's not just the jobs i missed out on; it;s my whole life.

The SH thoughts are coming up thick and fast and it's kinda scary. Actually it is scary 😞

i don't know how to deal with any of this. all my issues i can't deal with

sorry i shouldn't bother you or anyone with my stuff; it's never positive is it. i am sorry 😞

Sorry to hear you missed out on the jobs @BlueBay- I can hear how much you want things to be differentand how scary your world is feeling right now. I'm going to send you a check in email.

Pebbles 🙂

@Former-Member i'm so dumb I can't control my thoughts and behavour and what i do. i just don't learn. it's annoyunig frustrating and overwhelming.

i really want and need a new job. i am being pressured by hubby to get new job because of no money left each fortnight. we can't live like this. i don't need this pressure.

i am overwhelemd with everyting at the moment; i just want to disappear for a while

No you are not dumb @BlueBay, feeling overwhelmed yes I hear that but you are not dumb.

@Faith-and-Hope and I are here with you 🙂

@BlueBay .... apply for 20 jobs .... 30 jobs .... stagger them so you start hearing back (or not) progressively, so if you get called in for interviews and things, you are able to manage it all.

Can you get your kids involved ? Tell them what sort of job you are looking for, and see whether maybe you want to try something a bit new .... like working in a giftt shop, somewhere like the aquarium, or another tourist attraction like that ......

Maybe you can knit items for a craft shop and have a few smaller jobs like that on the go at once .....

Would you like to try waitressing in a small lunch bar or something ?

Dont worry about it being negative when you post here .... that’s what we are here for .... to help each other with what we need to manage and get on top of.

💙🐚💕

Hi @BlueBay,

It's @Dogman here, the forum is a place that you will not be judged only supported, I am just wondering if you have or are you seeing a mental health specialist? I found my self in a similar position as you and we had no money and life was extremely hard. I found by seeing a Psychologist/Psychiatrist and keeping in touch with my Doctor that having a good support net work started to take some of the pressure off. as I found that, i was getting to understand things i found i could only start with part time work, their are places out there that can help you and the situation you find your self in. Keep going and you will see that you are a wonderful person and that you are loved and that by having a good support net work will help in keeping you pointed in a good and healthy direction. Be kind to your self and start and think and remember your good points and that the hardest part is talking about it. remember you are a good person and never give up on your self and keep looking for the right help for you.

In your support,

@Dogman

@Faith-and-Hope i have told my kids about looking for jobs. I have them looking as well.

Trouble is there isn't much at the moment.

Hi @Dogman nice to meet you. Sorry i am not in a good headspace at the moment. i do have a support network of GP, psychiatrist and seeing a new psychologist in two weeks time.

"Be kind to myself" - i struggle to be kind when all i want to do is SH. I so much struggle right now.

I'm sorry.

Can i ask you? - how did you get throguh when you had no money?

i really don't think i can go on for much longer like this 😞

It's really no use anymore, life is just too difficult

anxiety high, it doesn't matter

i am sorry