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not feeling good

BlueBaySenior Contributor15 Nov 2016, 9:06 pm AEDT

not feeling good

At the moment i am not feeling good. i feel like my body is in 'run away mode'. i feel my body is running on a high, my head is so mixed up. i have to go to bed and try to sleep, but don't know if i can.

my hormones are everywhere at the moment; my mood is sky high negative. i can't deal with this anymre. all of a sudden i am not feeling good. i think it is anxiety.

i don't know why i feel like this; i just want to cry but can't becsue everyone is home. i am going to bed. i don't know what is going on. actually maybe it is anxiety because i felt like passing out today.

I went to my GP to have my mirena IUD taken out as I had had enough. But he couldn't find the string, so he sent me for a ultrasound. Had that and the guy said i had two fibroids and a cyst on my ovary. but he couldn't find the string either, so had to have an xray to find the metal piece. they didn't tell me anything. but while waiting i was so anxious i almost passed out.

so now i have to wait for tomorrow when my GP will call me at work and let me know what will happen now. hopefully he can take the mirena out. i don't know.

my body is reacting to my anxiety - i feel so shaky, i need to stop. no point telling anyone at home becasue (a) they won't believe me and (b) they prob wouldn't care.

sorry, i had to tell someone. i feel so alone 😞

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Faith-and-HopeSenior Contributor24 Jan 2018, 5:12 pm AEDT

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Hearing you @BlueBay .....

Are you still searching for new job opportunities ? Continuing to apply elsewhere ?

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Shaz51Senior Contributor24 Jan 2018, 5:13 pm AEDT

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hearing you too @BlueBay

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BlueBaySenior Contributor24 Jan 2018, 5:18 pm AEDT

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@Shaz51@Faith-and-Hope

I am looking every 1/2 hour on two different job sites. i keep checking to see if it gets updated with new jobs. it's literally driving me crazy.

i doin't know what else to do apart from scream, cry and more scream and cry

i am getting desperate, i told my GP today that i am desperate and if i don't find a job soon - well that's when suicide thoughts are getting stronger

i can't live like this anymore

@Former-Member i have just tried to chat online but it is offline - so that is no good

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Unknown userMember24 Jan 2018, 5:21 pm AEDT

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It'll be online again in a few minutes @BlueBay

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BlueBaySenior Contributor24 Jan 2018, 5:22 pm AEDT

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ok thank you @Former-Member

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utopiaSenior Contributor24 Jan 2018, 7:39 pm AEDT

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@BlueBay - another thing you can try is to contact employment agencies. Sometimes they offer casual or temp positions. Other times part time or full time permanent jobs.
They get paid big money to get a client a job - so they will work really hard to find you a permanent role.
Check your local newspapers and see which agencies advertise. Find an agency that specialises in the field you want to work in.
The more you search for jobs or have people searching for you - the quicker you should find the right job for you.
Good luck.

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BlueBaySenior Contributor25 Jan 2018, 4:33 pm AEDT

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thanks @utopia i will look up some agencies and have a chat with them next week.

now i feel that i am 'obsessed' with searching for a job. it is taking up a lot of my time. maybe i need to stop being so obsessed and let it just happen. but it is driving me crazy to the point of searching every few minutes.

i started walking again yesterday. my GP suggested i start walking again to improve my mental health and exercise to help with my weight. so we both agreed that i would do a 30 min walk which i did later in the afternoon.

this morning i woke up and got my runners on and took the dog for a 30 min walk again at 7.30am. i did feel good for a little while but then the desperation, sadness, obsession and depression came back not long after. so i thought 'what's the point in walking'

hope you're okay @utopia. is the weather warm where you are?

BB xxxooo

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utopiaSenior Contributor25 Jan 2018, 5:08 pm AEDT

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What's the point of walking? @BlueBay.
Besides the health benefits - for those 30 minutes, you weren't depressed, obsessed, sad or desperate. Those were 30 minutes of peace.
Maybe you could do another 30 minute walk this evening. Another 30 minutes of peace.
And then tomorrow - more peace. Etc.
What sort of work are you looking for? In pharmacy or admin?

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BlueBaySenior Contributor25 Jan 2018, 5:55 pm AEDT

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Hey @utopia

Hubby and I took Jersey for another walk just before. Now i am getting dinner ready. My daughter and her little one are coming over for dinner. She is 4 months old now and is googling and gargling - it is so much fun. i love this age. and she smiles so much.

I am looking for admin work because it pays better than pharmacy. I can make an extra $200-$400 a fortnight in admin. The difference is huge. I remember when i left pharmacy years ago to go and work in admin i made an extra $400 a fortnight. It was huge.

I have just looked again and nothing much. But i will keep looking

Tomorrow i am going to my daughtger's house and we are going to walk to our local pier where they are doing free Aust Day breakfast. we will spend some time there and listen to some music and see what else is going on. then we will walk home and spend some time together.

what are you doing tomorrow. i keep forgetting to ask you - how is your son going? are things any better between you both?

BB xxoo

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utopiaSenior Contributor25 Jan 2018, 7:14 pm AEDT

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Yes Admin position sounds like the better option @BlueBay. You'd be able to start putting away some savings again.
The walk to the pier sounds nice. A good way to celebrate Australia Day.
4months old. Yes they are giggling and smiling and watching everything you do - at that age. It's a fun time.
My son and I are doing so much better. He's still in Nepal at the moment - but will be home Tuesday night.Will be good to have him home again.
I'm doing nothing tomorrow. I don't celebrate Australia Day. I'm more along the lines of Invasion Day

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