not feeling good

Sounds like a good idea @BlueBay .... 💕

Hi @Former-Member@Faith-and-Hope@utopia@Zoe7@Shaz51

Hope everyone is doing okay 🙂

I have been not well physically. I have been having chest pains and have to see my physician (the hospital doctor) this coming Wednesday to get results from stress test for the heart. But on Tuesday i saw my GP and he said some results came back from a blood test and showed that my kidneys are deteriorating. I am now stressing. So he wrote a letter to my physician to take to him on Wednesday and wants answers on a few things.

On Wednesday night i went into emergency because i was so breathless, hubby took me in to my local hospital and they did an ECG and blood test and all came back okay but decided to keep me in all night.

I can't wait to see this doctor to find out what's going on. I am stressing so much which isn't helping.

All my xmas shopping is done and wrapped under the tree. Most of the main food is bought and in freezer and fridge. It's only us and the kids on xmas day. My parents decided to not come (i asked my parents to come and as always my mum finds an excuse and said dad is not well, which is rubbish)

i am hurt and upset at that but i also don't care anymore because we will have baby Ayla with us and that will be special. it is there loss, but it still hurts because of my dad.

my daughter is going to her partners family for lunch and then to us for dinner, so it will be nice and relaxing day.

i am avoiding shops now as i hate the mad crazy rush of everyone. my son and hubby have just left to go shopping in one of the bigger shopping centres - good luck to them!!!

anyway, i really hope everyone is doing okay, have you all done your xmas shopping. what are you all doing for xmas?

take care, xxxooo

sending you lots of hugs @BlueBay

thank you @Shaz51 xxxooo

Yes @BlueBay .... your Christmas Day does sound lovely. I hope you get some speedy answers with those health issues and it all turns out to be okay ..... stress can play havoc on the body .....

Sending hugs too ..... 💙💙💙

Hi @Faith-and-Hope @utopia @Shaz51 @Former-Member @Zoe7

I have been discharged from hospital yesterday late arvo. The reslts from the angiogram was good. I had to stay in another night for my asthma. It is okay now. My kidney's are another issue - we are going to wait and see what happens. I saw my GP this morning and he is still concerned but he said lets see how next blood test goes.

I am organised now for Christmas dinner. I have bought all the food, my younger son is making dessert, i have made one. We are having breakfast altogether with our daughter as well. Then she will head off to her partner's side for lunch and then she;'ll be back to us for dinner. I am looking forward to opening presents and having a nice relaxing day.

I went to see my parents yesterday, not much there. Gave them a small present and left. She upset me becasue she was having my sister today for xmas lunch and my other sister on xmas day. She could have had me but oh no i wasn't invited. I feel so rejected and abandoned by her, i feel hated and it';s not a nice feeling.

I hope everyone is doing okay at this time of the year.

I want to wish you all a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year. I hope that next year brings a much better and brighter year for your all. Health, wealth, love and joy to you all.

BB xxxooo

I'm sorry to write again - but i am feeling a bit down, depressed and blue.

This overwhelming feeling is over me. Whether it's because i have just come out of hospital, i am not sure.

is it because i miss my dad so much and can't even tell him because i lack communiction.

even though my kids will be with me tomorrow i still have this void - of my own parents. is it me as a child wanting my own parents.

i don't know - i feel so sad.