not feeling good

and here is where I am too @BlueBay - don't even think about other threads or posts anywhere else - stick with what is safest for you now and that is here my beautiful friend - and I might ride along with you (should be pretty easy to do seeing as I have been super glued to your shoulder for a while now lol)

thank you @Zoe7 you have stuck by me for a while,

funny that last night i helped you and tonight you are here for me

I'm sorry, i just can't get things right can I?

So many things happening in my life right now that i should be so happy and proud, yet i am so damn depressed, with all emotions mixed together including frustration and mix in that SH urges and constant thoughts of my childhood

IT'S DOING MY HEAD IN

i wnat it quiet, i want my head to stop and it's not working, i don't know what else to do Zoe

maybe i shld just go to bed and hide under my doona and cry to sleep; that;s what i do when i am so vulnerable or

i could SH and then go to bed and cry; oh i don't know

and I will continue to stick by you sweetheart @BlueBay

It isn't about getting things right or wrong BB - it is simply about doing what you can, when you can. Last night I really needed support - and guess what - even though you were not doing well yourself - you put yourself aside and helped me - that is very selfless - and so very much appreciated

I don't have any answers for you BB except to say that you are here - talking, connecting, communicating your thoughts and feelings and I am here to continue to 'listen' to whatever you have to say. I know there is alot swirling around in your head - and it can get so confusing and so demoralising when you can't seem to stop it - but if talking it out will help - I am all ears (eyes)

nothings working @Zoe7

i can't stop my head from thinking or to quieten down

i can hear the rainn outwside, it is pouring

maybe i should just go away

Hello @BlueBay I am here too with you

how about you and @Zoe7 and I go and sit on the beach, it is nice and sunny and warm , just us relaxing together in the shade , the water is lapping our feet -- ammmmmm

@BlueBay doesn't matter where you go - I will be with you - STILL super glued to your shoulder lol

Apparently we have been magically transported to a beach (I hope it is a very warm beach @Shaz51)

Let's eatch Toby running around like a crazy puppy - that would make anyone laugh - even Grumpy Cat lol

Hi @BlueBay, @Zoe7 and @Shaz51,

I can come along and sit on the beach with you too if you like

Better bring the flotation devices then @Former-Member - you know I am not capable of swimming atm just in case the tide starts coming in suddenly!

@Zoe7@Former-Member@Shaz51

maybe i should disappear forever and never come back

my life is just one big dark hole mess

i am so confused tonight, my mind is going so fast with so many negative thaoughts

i don't know what to do anymore

Ohh yes nice and warm @Zoe7, @BlueBay, @Former-Member

toby and our dogs are playing together , ohh look at my dog she is a corgi with short legs and the sand is tickering her tummy as she is running

have you got a dog @Former-Member