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not feeling good

not feeling good

At the moment i am not feeling good. i feel like my body is in 'run away mode'. i feel my body is running on a high, my head is so mixed up. i have to go to bed and try to sleep, but don't know if i can.

my hormones are everywhere at the moment; my mood is sky high negative. i can't deal with this anymre. all of a sudden i am not feeling good. i think it is anxiety.

i don't know why i feel like this; i just want to cry but can't becsue everyone is home. i am going to bed. i don't know what is going on. actually maybe it is anxiety because i felt like passing out today.

I went to my GP to have my mirena IUD taken out as I had had enough. But he couldn't find the string, so he sent me for a ultrasound. Had that and the guy said i had two fibroids and a cyst on my ovary. but he couldn't find the string either, so had to have an xray to find the metal piece. they didn't tell me anything. but while waiting i was so anxious i almost passed out.

so now i have to wait for tomorrow when my GP will call me at work and let me know what will happen now. hopefully he can take the mirena out. i don't know.

my body is reacting to my anxiety - i feel so shaky, i need to stop. no point telling anyone at home becasue (a) they won't believe me and (b) they prob wouldn't care.

sorry, i had to tell someone. i feel so alone 😞

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that's the problem Zoe, i have to be 'perfect' for him and the kids. i have to act that i am okay. they don't want to see me in a crying mess.

ok, i can try to take Jersey out the front street for a little walk but the SH urges are here, maybe i will just do that and then i can go to hospital

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no I don't have any around. I feel like using something sharp to rip into stuff

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@Zoe7 well that didn't work

i took Jersey outside the front and walked to the end of our street. it is freezing cold so i came back.

i can't do this anymore Zoe

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it is really hard to stop these thoughts going round in my head

i hate it so much

is there a @moderator around????

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I am so sorry @BlueBay - my sister's partner just dropped off some work for me to do for him - but I'm back now sweetheart

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Hi @BlueBay I will send you a check in email ok?

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I know you are struggling with these thoughts - your negative self-talk is taking up all the space in your mind. So let's replace that with some positive thoughts @BlueBay

  • your grandchild will be here soon and you are looking forward to that so much
  • there has been a re-connection (in a small way) with your family (still baby steps but it has started)
  • you have a new house - your dream house
  • your GP is supporting you and cares
  • your son is doing what he wanted to do and joined the police force
  • your daughter wants you involved in helping with her baby
  • hospital will happen - it is just a little further away than you would like

and... I am sitting on your shoulder always LOL

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@Zoe7

I had some dinner and things have very slightly calmed down. Not a lot but just a tiny bit. Although the SH urges are still with me and I have written a plan in my head of how to SH.

I don't deserve this anymore, people helping, talking to me,

I feel i am a huge burden to everyone

feeling overwhelmed by this whole thing in my head

thank you for sitting on my shoulder

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@BlueBay

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@Zoe7 tonight i can't go on any other posts to say hi.

i wanted to say hi to @Former-Member and everyone else on the friday feast but just can't

so hi from here

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