not feeling good

Hi everyone

My heart is racing, i am shaking and can't calm myself down right now.

I remembered before that it is father's day very soon. well that's what started my panic. you all know why.

I want to stop my meds

i want to go away

i want to stop everything

right now

Hello @BlueBay

I'm sorry you are going through a really tough time at the moment, and thinking about fathers day is bringing up a lot for you, are you able to just stick to some basics today to help you calm down so you can think a bit clearer? Have you had breakfast and a shower yet this morning? Might be good to try to start with those for now, thinking of you

Lunar

Hi @Former-Member

I've had a shower and had breakfast. I am sitting here alone not knowing what to do next.

I did call my GP who returned my call and I spoke to him. I told him how anxious i am about fathers day and he said he understands how i am feeling about that day. he said 'let's plan for the day', i told him i had nothing planned. he said it would be good if i could go for a walk down thre street. i promised him i would go for a walk. Just now my daughter called and said she would like me to go with her to target. i don't really want to go anywhere today, but i will go with her.

i told my GP i want to stop my meds and he said he understands why i want to stop them but at the moment i need to stay on them as they are helping me with my depression and anxiety.

I am seeing him tomorrow morning.

@Former-Member it's really hard thinking of Father's day, i won't see my dad. I know he is around and yes i couljd just go around and see him but there are so manhy obstacles that are stopping me. And there are so many painful hurtful things said to me that i still feel very vulnerable and hurt that i don't think i can go just yet to see my parents.

i don't know how i am going to cope on that day, i wish i was in hospital that day.

That's good that you had a shower and breakfast @BlueBay and also very helpful that you called your Gp and was able to talk them through everything, it does seem like you are feeling quite worried about how you'll go on fathers day and wanting to stop feeling this way right away, but it might just be about riding out how you feel today by doing some things to distract you to get through it, the anxiety will pass.

Just remind yourself, these uncomfortable feelings will pass like they have before.

A plan for how you will cope on fathers day is a good idea to run through with someone, not on your own okay. It will be a difficult day for you, but it is not today, so just try to focus on today if you can okay, it might help you feel more calm

@Faith-and-Hope Yeah I will remember those two 'dads' as well. We will most likely go out for breakfast together, and hopefully my son will be able to come home on the weekend from the police academy.

I know it will be a nice day for my husband. But it doesn't take away the thoughts of my dad, they will still be there.

I just have to try to focus on them in between the pain and sorrow i have for my own dad 😞

Attagirl @BlueBay ..... 🤗💜💐💕 ... just do your best .....

Thank you @Faith-and-Hope

thanks for having faith in me and trusting me that i can get through each terrible phase I go through.

BB xxxooo

I have people trusting me too @BlueBay .... and it really helps me .... so lovely to hear it is helping you too ....

Big hugs ..... 🤗💙💕