not feeling good

hi @BlueBay

im not in too much of a good headspace myself. i still suffer from the 'crazy' mindset. i get it and i understand

can you do anything to keep yourself busy until the urges pass?

No not really @outlander

all i want to do is SH so badly

sorry you'rre not doing great either

try and resist those urges @BlueBay

try ok?

what have you found in the past that works for you?

you cna keep chatting on here if that helps?

i havent heard much about your daughters baby for a bit?

@outlander

my daughter is 29 weeks now showing quite a big bump

she has bought a cradle and set it up, she is doing well except starting to get a sore back

@outlander it is really hard to stop the urges because i feel so angry at certain people

i don't want to bother you too much, you are struggling too. maybe a moderator could help, i don't know, i don't know anything anymore, i feel pretty useless 😞

that sounds really positive @BlueBay can you focus on the positives of that? imagine seeing your grandchild when they are born and the things youll be able to do as well as with your daughter.

i know when the urges come they come in full force just as mine do and once the ideas there it quickly escalates- is that the same for you too

ill tag @Former-Member here for you too

Hi @BlueBay

Sorry to hear that the SH urges are feeling so overwhelming right now. Has something happened today to make you feel angry with yourself?

I understand feeling as though the suggestion of going for a walk wasnt helpful. Hopefully we can work something out together

@Former-Member

I can't move away from my compujter, i am so angry with a few people in my life including myself.

i wish i was differrent, i hate myself for how i am right now. i hate what i do to myself with the SH

i am crying, i am hurting, i am venting but it's not working the SH urges are strong

keep thinking about my parents and how much i miss my dad (no there is no way i can contact him) so yes i am grieving and it is so damn hard to keep going with life

Rockpool i don't know i really want to SH so badly these urges are strong

Hi my little yellow flower @BlueBay

You are presently stuck in your negative mindset and letting your negative self-talk take over your mind and body. This is when you need to take a few deep breaths and try to find your beautiful island in your mind. Close your eyes and think about the beautiful blue water, the sand between your toes, the sun on your face and the stillness of the air as you breath it in. See the empty beach as a safe place to just BE and let all that negativity wash away with each wave.

I hear you @BlueBay. I'm going to send you an email and respond to this post that way so we can work through it together

Hi @Zoe7, @Shaz51, @outlander and @Faith-and-Hope

I'm just stopping by to let you know that @BlueBay is okay. She asked me to let you know that I have been chatting with her via email and that she is taking some self-care time away from the forum for tonight at least. She will be back in touch with you when she feels she is able to.

Thank you all for being here to support her