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not feeling good

not feeling good

At the moment i am not feeling good. i feel like my body is in 'run away mode'. i feel my body is running on a high, my head is so mixed up. i have to go to bed and try to sleep, but don't know if i can.

my hormones are everywhere at the moment; my mood is sky high negative. i can't deal with this anymre. all of a sudden i am not feeling good. i think it is anxiety.

i don't know why i feel like this; i just want to cry but can't becsue everyone is home. i am going to bed. i don't know what is going on. actually maybe it is anxiety because i felt like passing out today.

I went to my GP to have my mirena IUD taken out as I had had enough. But he couldn't find the string, so he sent me for a ultrasound. Had that and the guy said i had two fibroids and a cyst on my ovary. but he couldn't find the string either, so had to have an xray to find the metal piece. they didn't tell me anything. but while waiting i was so anxious i almost passed out.

so now i have to wait for tomorrow when my GP will call me at work and let me know what will happen now. hopefully he can take the mirena out. i don't know.

my body is reacting to my anxiety - i feel so shaky, i need to stop. no point telling anyone at home becasue (a) they won't believe me and (b) they prob wouldn't care.

sorry, i had to tell someone. i feel so alone 😞

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Re: not feeling good

Thank you @Zoe7

i am feeling very alone tonight, fragile like a broken flower. A broken heart.

I feel so vulnerable

emotional

angry

hurt

i feel so alone, it doesn't matter

thanks Zoe for being here xxxooo

thanks @Faith-and-Hope xxxooo

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Re: not feeling good

It really is ok @BlueBay all that you are feeling is completely understandable - keep writing, keep connecting here with us - we are here for you my beautiful little yellow flower

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💜🐚💕 @BlueBay .....

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OMG @Faith-and-Hope that is beautiful

Thank you so much xxxooo

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Fragile as an elastic band

ready to snap any minute

Emotional like a baby

wanting their dad so much

Vulnerable like a little bird

wanting to fly away from the nest

Scared of life

like me

nothing matters anymore

nothing changes anymore

no one is me it's just me

it's only me that is me

I'll fly one day into the sky

and watch you all one day

i don't know what to say

sorry is on my mind

the hurt, the pain, the apologies

I'm stuffed

the anger, the torture, the anger

it hurts, it breaks

but they don't care

they did and they never will

oh well this is how they want it

i hope one day they feel sorry for what they did

i hope one day God punishes htem for my hurt

my pain my suffering

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Hearing you @BlueBay and still sitting on your shoulder...

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I'm hearing you too @BlueBay ...... 💙🐚💕

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@Zoe7 @Faith-and-Hope

I have SH on hand

it's okay

i am sorry

i rang my GP because i was really angry and he told me to go for a walk

well he can go and jump

i don't care anymore about anything

yes @Zoe7 next thursday is my birthday

not sure where i will be

here, there, or in hospital

in a psych ward, in a short stay

or in a ............

i am hurting so much today and i don't even know why

sorry i shouldn't be on here ranting and raving

all of you have your own issues and here am I ranting and raving

you don't want to listen to me

told my GP about my hand

he doesn't even care

see BPD people are people who want to be cared for

i am so screwed up

WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH ME

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Hello @BlueBay,sitting with you my friend

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how do i get myself out of this 'crazy mindset' of SH and hating myself with so much anger towards myself

trying to listen to music - doing no good making me worse

wish i could go away forever and ever

SH urges are becoming stronger again

i don't know what to do

can anyone help?

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