not feeling good

@utopia OK, i will go and make a cuppa and lay on the couch. i am exhausted physically and mentally.

it may be an early night for me. i am very out of it. i think the alcohol hasn't really helped. you were right. sorry. i had a feeling alcohol was a bad choice.

i miss my dad @utopia i want him; i wish he could be here for me just to hug me and tell me he loves me; tell me i will be okay - but he's not

ok i;ll go and make a cuppa and try to lay down; i actually don't feel that great. think i drank too much

i wanted the pain to go away with the alcohol - guess it didn't work did it;

if i don't come back on tonight it eans i have gone to bed, hopefully not sick just sleeping. i am scaed about these visions/thoughts

hope you're okay utopia my friend, i have always been your friend, you are so kind to me

Hi @utopia

I did make a cuppa and was watching telly. But the amount of alcohol I drank (too much) made me very sleepy. i ended up falling asleep on the couch. Hubby had to take me to bed.

i have just made a cake as a friend is coming over soon to visit our new home. I am listening to Adele on the computer and I am in a daze. I am daydreaming a lot and listening to 'these voices in my head'.

I did a 4.5km walk with Jersey this morning and hubby. i felt okay walking. it was cold and windy but i was okay. but now voices are back.

how are you today @utopia xxxooo

you have been busy this morning @BlueBay

I have not done much today , sleep in until 9am and being watching tv , made mr shaz eggs on toast

what time are you friend coming over xx

Hi @Shaz51

my friends are coming about 3.30pm. The carrot cake i made is really nice. It is a pkt cake, i cheated!!!

my boys have just come home from the gym (they slept in and went to the gym) so now they are making their lunch, let's hope they clean the kitchen when they finish.

any plans for the afternoon? xxoo

ha ha Hope your Boys don`t find the cake @BlueBay

I buy the packet muffing mix , the double chocolate -- yum, mr shaz eats them all , between my stepsons and him , I might get one muffin

well mr sha just made me a cup of coffee

Hi @utopia

I'm sorry you don't feel motivated today. Although if my friend wasn't coming today i would be sitting on the couch with a blanket and do nothing.

My friend and her hubby came over, we had drinks it was nice to see her. I told her about my hospital stay last week and she was a bit concerned. I hope i haven't worried her now. see that's why i don't tell anyone.

I am going to phone my psych's room and ask if i can see him urgently this week. i need to tell him about these hallucinations and i don't want him to just say to me 'call the CAT team'. if that is his answser i will be really pissed off with him.