not feeling good

Hi @utopia

I know what you're saying about distractions but even doing something different the voice in my head is still there and what it is telling me to do is scary. I can't tell you on here what it is telling me but you can imagine what it is - something to do with me and something sharp. And then it has somethign to do with my parents and especially seeing my dad.

I so want to scream, i can't stop it. why can't it stop, it is literally driving me crazy

i have unpacked some more boxes and put them the stuff in a glass stand.

i don't want to go back to hospital @utopia i am scared 😞

Hello @BlueBay

I'm sorry your going through this. Have you tried using your real voice to simply say 'no'? I think it happens because of a physical problem with your brain processing your senses, perhaps something you saw, heard, smelt, touched or tasted has triggered it. Can you do something that you know gives you postive thoughts? Look at something nice, listen to a favorite song, put on a lovely perfurme, touch something soft or silky, eat something you like? Or just keep chatting here. Feeling for you Bluebay

Thank you for your support @Former-Member

I really don't knw what to do anymre. If i ring the CAT team i am sure they will say go to hospital. I can't ring my psych, psychologist or GP. So i will chat onn here for a while. i need to stay focussed on one thing only. even thaough this voice is still hounding me.

i have a nice candle on which smells beatiful

I'm so scared, that this voice whoever it is, is taking over

i am really scared something has triggered this to happen because i haven't had this happen before

Hi @BlueBay

Sorry to hear those voices are really strong at the moment, how scary that must be. @Former-Member they were some lovely suggestions you mentioned. I agree with the positive thoughts, even if you keep getting support from the members here (it makes you feel nice to know people are there for you and looking out for you... well it makes me feel nice and hopefully makes you too).

Do you feel like you are heading downhill BlueBay?

Zahlia xx

Hi @Zahlia

I think i am heading downhill again. I think i am heading for hospital admission again.

I was only in hospital a month ago. I think on Monday i will phone my psych and see if i can see him earlier than a month's time and see if i can see him and explain what's goiong on.

i am very scared

What does your candle smell like @BlueBay? I love the smell of roses, I will often use a rose scented oil in the saucepan of water I keep on my fire-heater - and when I do that I always dab a little under my nose 🙂

@Former-Member

The candle is gardenia - the smell is wafting through the whole house. It's beautiful.

I hope this settles tonight, i hope i can sleep well. i get scared quite easily. to be honest with you i can't work out if it is a voice 'in my head' telling me what to do or if it is me talking 'iin my head' - does that make sense??? probably not???

Thanks @Former-Member