not feeling good

good afternoon @BlueBay, sending you lots of hugs my friend

sounds like you are really taking control of your life @BlueBay by getting rid of the objects/things that are not part of what you want in your life! hope by now you are warm and knitting somewhere cozy!

Take care

Hubby and I took 6 boxes of plates, cups and crap to the Salvos store near us. They were so happy. I was too - to get rid of the stuff. We didn't sell much at the garage sale. But that's okay, we still have the picture frames but they are all ready to go with the next run to the Salvos. There are quite a few picture frames that are gooing to the Salvos, as well as a single bed head, a side table, clothes and odds and ends. Hubby will take them all next Monday as he has next week off as well.

So then that is it - all of mum's stuff - GONE!!

But if by chance some have snuck in a box and i find it when I move - i will definitely throw it out.

No way am i keeping anything that reminds me of her.

Not sure if I told you guys but that one year when I spoke to my parents (2 years ago now) she gave me some of her rings. She told me she decided to give her rings out now before she passed away. I got 2.

They are the only two things I have of her, I guess i will keep them and I could get them melted down into a nice ring made or i could keep them as they are. Not sure on that one, i will leave that as is for now.

So then that is it - all of mum's stuff - GONE!! --- ahhhhhhhhhh, @BlueBay, how are you feeling

when I inherited my dad`s house , i got rid of everything in the house even the wall panels and got the place repainted -- and I felt ahhhhhhhhhh

Yeah @Shaz51 that's my mum's frames and plates gone - but I haven't left the house yet.

That will be the hardest thing to do.

You know even though they are still alive it is still hard to do.

well done @BlueBay you accomplished alot today very well done

Hi @outlander@Shaz51@Former-Member@Faith-and-Hope@Owlunar@utopia@Former-Member@Zoe7

I am not doing good this morning. Have had lots of tears

thinking of my dad

he hasn't seen this house for a long long time

hasn't seen all the changes we have made

i wanted him to see them and to be proud of me

i wanted him to say how nice they look

but he won't cause he can't

choking back the tears is really difficult this morning

with only 3 weeks to go

i don't know if i can get there

without falling to pieces

i'm trying to hold it altogether

but i am falling apart

these tears are coming

i wish i could just hide away

so no one could see me

🤗💐💙💕🤗 .... sitting with you @BlueBay .....

Maybe take some pics of the things about the house you would have liked to show him, and keep them with the letters .... it's just a thought ....

💙🤗💕

Yeah that's a good idea @Faith-and-Hope

I could do that. It's so hard. I know these next 3 weeks are going to be tough. Now I know why my psych wants me in hospital.

I'm trying to keep busy but it's when i am not busy and i am still my mind wanders and i get teary. i suppose everyone who moves gets a bit teary.

i thought ii might go through the pantry today and throw out all old stuff and just keep stuff we are using and then pack upu last week. that way if i am in hopsital the last week hubby can pack in box easily.

@Faith-and-Hope i get scared sometimes that i will not cope, i fear so much of myself i don't trust or believe in myself at all. i have very little faith in myself. see now i am crying again. that's all i seem to be doing lately. thank you for you support. you are so kind to me always xxxooo