not feeling good

@MDT @BlueBay 👍👍👍

Had suicidal thoughts before. Rs g my doctor but he wasn't on. But spoke to another. He was good he has made an appt for me to see my doctor Monday. Asked if I would be safe today and tomorrow. I told him for now I sm but can't guarantee next week. He said to take my meds. And if worse go to hodpital or call the CAT team.
@Maggie @MDT 😢

@BlueBay Just popping in to say I'm glad you've spoken to someone about how you're feeling. It takes courage to be honest about these types of things. It sounds like you know what you need to do to keep yourself safe ahead of the doctors appointment on Monday. We're here for you

Thanks @Jupiter

I'm hibernating at home. I feel really down and tired. Didn't sleep well. Woke up twice for granddaughter then was up at 5am

tired doesn't help mental state

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hi @Maggie @MDT @Owlunar @Shaz51 and others

there's always drama at my place. Today little A went to her dads. She brought her favourite woody toy eith her. When he brought her home before he left it at hime. Little A started to cry. He was complaining that he was so drained from hsbing her fir 5 hours!! My D said to him it's her favourite to she sleeps with woody snd thst he will have to go home. He cracked it big time. He drives off very annoyed. He then calls and has a go at my D. Saying that from now on no special toys at his house. He then says csnt you tell A thst woody is staying at daddy's house tonight. But A was crying.
he just got back here and was so not happy thst he had to come back. It's a 40 min return drive.
but I know thst A would not sleep tonight

he is so immature. No time really for A. Doesn't play with her. He put on a DVD snd thst was his way of playing with her.

he has not paid my D one cent since separating. My daughter has bought everything - food, snacks clothes a new stroller and a toddler single bed. Nappies. So much stuff. It makes me so angry.
but now my D has gone through child support and they will get money from him. He cracked it big time when he received letter from centrelink.
Oh well he's the father he needs to be responsible.

I'm still feeling blah. I feel sick in my stomach. Could be from not taking my meds.
@Maggie @MDT How are you both this afternoon.
xxxxxxx

hi @Maggie @MDT @Owlunar @Shaz51 and others reading

Went for a beach walk this morning now I made scones. Having them with coffee then resting.
I'm feeling down.
Littke A was sick after her milk this morning. She slept before and is better now. Poor thing.

@BlueBay A walk on the beach, and scones, both sound good to me. I’ve been out in the garden. It’s a beautiful day here. A cold start, but beautiful now.

Sorry little A was sick. Little people can have tricky tummies.

I hope your down mood isn’t too bad. Take care.

@Maggie
hi maggie. It's so hard with another lockdown. I feel stuck. I suppose so does everyone.
I wish I had a big garden again. All I have is a tiny front strip and same at back. Our old house was on two blocks. I loved gardening and watering. It was calm for me. Except hubby hated having to cut bsvk the tress all the time.
if we move agsin I wNt yo make sure I have a bit more garden. I want a backyard with room to make a veggie patch.
do you have a good size garden?