not feeling good

You have told us some things about how people make you feel @BlueBay

You are so often afraid that people are going to be angry. And you feel angry. I am guessing that when you are angry vastly different when other people feel angry and it is terrifying for you.

And it does come across on the forum that your anger is really out of your control - I told you that my computer tends to drop me anywhere in your thread when I am looking up the end and I tend to remember too - how angry you used to get when your doctor wouldn't see you when you wanted him to back when you can only see him once in two weeks -

Did you ever get around to telling him?

Through my life I learned to tell people when I feel I have been wronged - it wasn't easy - it isn't something anyone teaches us - it is how to be assertive - and your psychologist is the best person to direct you to somewhere you can learn this but it is also on line - I did look that up.

But you do need to tell people how you feel - have you ever told your husband - hard I know - and I bet you have never told your parents.

There is a choice of just accepting your past and this is not easy - there are things I have have had to accept because all those people have died. The time to sort things out is now and onward otherwise you will have it for your life

If the other people won't accept it then that is up to them - and being a people pleaser is hard work and doesn't get you anywhere

You haven't held back here - I know this post might make you angry and I would be sad if you didn't wanted to to speak to me because of it but it wouldnt be the end of the world - the chances are good that things would be better

I think your dietician told you that you are in control of what you eat when there are so many things in your life you have no control over. That's hard to hear I know

This took a long time to write Bluebay - it's not easy to tell people the truth when they are hurting - but you asked and I said I would tell you the truth. You will like yourself better if you let people know when you are angry - your husband and your mother need to hear but if they listen - well - that's up to them

And you can be angry with me if you like - you can tell me the truth

Dec

Hugs @BlueBay. You know who loves you to bits? Little A. She thinks you're the best. Hang in there and be kind to yourself.

Sitting with you @BlueBay. Hope you are doing ok, and reaching out to your supports

Thanks @Jynx

@I'm not coping with my thoughts or behaviour

I'm angry at myself

seeing my psychologist this adteenoon

not looking forward to it

What have you done to make you angry with yourself @BlueBay ? We all make mistakes at times - you did get into the manager at TAFE about that job which sounds pretty good to me

It's pretty normal to feel unsettled after any kind of procedure - don't be so hard on yourself and go with the flow

I missed your message about dealing with stress yesterday - perhaps it's easier to be sngry rather than look at the successful parts of your life and they are there and your dietician said you are dealing well with your diet and exercise but you need to deal with stress - I understand this

Talk to your therapist about pleasing yourself and not everyone else first sometimes - people pleasing needs to be selective - we need to be polite but we can speak our mind and have different opinions

I wish you the best today with your psychologist - and time itself will work our if you do the hard thing and see the positive side and stop hating yourself

Dec 🦉

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Thanks @Molliex @Maggie @@for your support ❤️❤️

Why can't I just be normal?

not someone like me that needs support love and help from others

why can't I be strong

I was born weak

always believing and listening to others

never trusting myself

hard to believe others too

im so screwed up I don't like who I am

Your strength and resilience through tough times has always impressed me @BlueBay

Thanks @Jupiter

triuble is I don't feel strong

right now I just need to be alone

even though I need people to help

it doesn't make sense

hi @Jupiter @Owlunar @Jynx @Molliex @Maggie @Former-Member @Shaz51 @Faith-and-Hope @MDT abd others
I'm angry now

hubby and his stupid comments

"why is the bin full"

why can't someone empty the tins

why can't someone do this or that

why is there mess

why why why

I'm sick of the why

I've moved my wrist more than I shoukd tiday

Tomorrow I'm putting my sling back on and not use it

today was last day with my psychologist. She has to close my books and I can refer myself back. She wants me to see how long I can cope before seeing her again.
that's hard to take in