not feeling good

Sending hugs @BlueBay Give your son an extra hug from us all. We appreciate him and all he does x

Hi @BlueBay

Things are really tough for so many atm - and I am not feeling crash hot today - bad start - normally I managed to get through a bad start better than I have today - but maybe this is just one of those days we all have from time to time

But for whatever reason when I click on anyone's thread I find myself reading something from the past and that happens when I click on this thread too and I notice that you have been battling for years and I am wondering what I can say - and wish there was something else I could say - that would help you - because you try so hard but things are so often stacked against you -

And along comes an event that has hit me too and that's the death of so many police officers at the same time and there are a lot of members of my family that have been in the police force or still are - so yes - this is a very hard thing to deal with for the state generally and also police families that know their loved ones are out there in the front line. My father, my grandfather and my brother were all injured at some time during their service and it takes a lot out of us - this I really understand and really know - and I do feel heavy-hearted too. I know this doesn't make it any easier for anyone - or other police families - but you are not alone and your sadness is natural - I feel it too. I identify with those feelings

I wish there was more I could say that could help - having so many people in your house with all this happening - and the social isolation too - it's tough yards - I'm glad your jobs is working out for you - I'm concerned about your health problems - and the stress

It won't last forever - but lasting the distance is not easy

Thinking of you

Dec

my Back is very sore

my hand is tingling so much day and night

my psych wants me to see my doctor for neurological testing

I don't need replies because I'm not worthy of any

just writing what I feel right now

im hurting because I feel no one cares

its always the same

I'm going now I can't be here or really anywhere

I not doing well.
im exhausted but who cares anyway

really does anyone care ???

I don't

im really sorry to everyone

not tagging anyone as I don't want to pressure anyone to reply

I care @BlueBay .. you know I do. And you are very worthy of our time and attention. 💖

Im sorry I havent been checking in with you more regularly. Its been a really hard week.

I think its a good idea to see a neurologist. All that tingling sounds nerve related to me, and thats what they specialise in. Its been troubling you for a while now, and it would be good to get it checked out and treated appropriately.

I know the weather is likely not good where you are. I hope you are staying warm and dry. Do you have any weekend shifts at work?

Sherry 😀

Hi @Former-Member

thank you.
I worked this morning.
I had a sleep before

my fingers are sore especially the knuckles

got a heat pack on my back

It's very cold

I'm in bed resting

really don't care snymire

I'm so over it

I'm sorry you've had a bad week. I haven't read any posts lately .... sorry

Resting in bed sounds like a good idea. Sitting with you today @BlueBay

Thats okay @BlueBay . Rest up. 💕

Hi @Former-Member how are you?
I'm a bit sore

feeling depressed tired frustrated and anxious

my little A went to her dads house but now she's home

Not cooking dinner tonight my older son is doing something

I keep having flashbacks of my childhood abuse.
I hate when they randomly come

it makes me hsving many negative thoughts.

my psych is calling me on Tuesday reg flashbacks

I don't know what he'll say

@BlueBay sending gentle hugs childhood trauma is so painful

Praying for you ❤🧡💛💚💙💜

Thanks @Angels333

I didn't do anything wrong

why me?

i was a good girl When I was abused

wasn't I ??

I hate my brother so much

i want it all to go away