not feeling good

Good to hear @BlueBay that your son is organising something for dinner tonight. Saves you having to do something.

It must be difficult for all of you, to see little A head off to her Dad. Definitely understand your anxieties around that.

It has been cold Bluebay, and it probably makes all your aches and pains worse. Glad you have the hot pack deployed.

Sorry you have had the old flashbacks again ... any flashback is dreadful, but I expect childhood trauma instigated ones are even worse. I really feel for you. Its pretty normal to be experiencing negative thoughts as a result. I have been getting some of that too recently. Its great that your psych is keeping an eye on you.

Always remember BlueBay ... none of what happened was your fault. Yes, you were a good and very young girl back then. And you did nothing wrong.

I get that you hate your brother. Only a couple of nights ago, on my thread, I wished my abuser dead. So yeah, I get that. Different circumstances, but same result. Ongoing trauma and suffering.

Sitting with you.

Sherry 🌺

@Former-Member

I don't want to be home right now

hubby arguing with older son

I cant handle this

I just told off hubby and he's response "I'm not talking to anyone anymore"

j csnt handle fights I hate arguments

it triggers me from when my parents had fights

I want to disappear

Where can I go??

ohh hugs my sister @BlueBay

I hate fights, disputes, arguments, aggression, too @BlueBay . I just dont deal well with anything like that. Causes me to feel that I need to escape. Like I did here when I left last month. 😐

I dont know where you could go to. Your parents perhaps? A friend or work colleage may be happy to have you stay for a night or two. I know money is tight, so a motel may be out of the question.

Not sure what your visiting restrictions are in VIC now? NSW now permits visitors, with some restrictions lifted since yesterday. Keep restrictions in mind, dont need a fine.

Failing that ... can you retreat to your room for a while .. have a quiet read of a book, or listen to some relaxing music?

I will sit with you if you'd like. Just finishing a glass of wine now that dinner is over. Would you care for some?

Thsnks @Shaz51 @Former-Member

where do I go? Nowhere. I'm stsying quiet in the lounge room.
Can't go anywhere restrictions are still in in Vic. Oh no I couldn't go to my parents. No way.

oh yes I'd love a wine. Thsnks @Former-Member

Thanks for being here both of you. It really helps to know people care. I was thinking and feeling so alone. I just need to be alone. Lots of negative thoughts crashing through my mind.

Coming right up @BlueBay. Its red wine .. hope thats okay. Its a good shiraz. Enjoy .. 🍷

Hi @Shaz51 .. I hope you have had a day off today?

just finished a glass of white wine my sisters @Former-Member , @BlueBay

Back again @Shaz51 @Former-Member

im worried my hand is tingling so much

I don't know Whst to do.
wait until Monday to see my doctor

it's my right hand

even just using my phone to type this my fingers are tingling bad

could it be stress anxiety ???

I would think its unlikely to be related to stress or anxiety, given your description @BlueBay , but I really dont know. Definitely need to get it seen to by a medical professional. Should be okay to wait until Monday, but suggest you try to avoid using your hand as much as possible over the next day or two, and monitor how it goes. Do you use your arm and/or hand a lot in your new job? Perhaps your neck and/or upper back could be affecting things down the arm. Your right handed arent you? If it were your left arm, and it was painful, I would be more concerned .. due to possible heart issues. But right hand/arm thats unlikely. Of course if you are seriously concerned ... go to your local hospital.