not feeling good

sending you lots of tender hugs my sister @BlueBay

how is everything this afternoon xxx

Oh pretty much the same @Shaz51

I feel we are all on tender hooks at the moment.
everything I say is wrong or hubby has to have a smart ass answer.
ive been keeping to myself not even replying bsvk because if I do I may say something very bad.

You've got a lot on your mind at the moment. I feel for you a lot. Xxxx

Hi @Shaz51 @Maggie @Molliex @Angels333 @Former-Member @Zoe7 @Faith-and-Hope @Owlunar @MDT and ithers

I had to see a physio today for my hip. She gave me some certain exercises. She then told me I was chubby in my stomach and big busted they wouldn't help my back and hip.
she decided to video me doing the exercises while she talked.
I then saw my exercise physiologist and broke down. He knew I wasn't right. I told him I'm angry at myself for my weight gain and then excessive eating. I told him about the physio taking the video and when I looked at them I was disgusted at myself. Haven't seen myself in a video thst close for a very long time.
I was totally ashamed and angry at myself. I wanted to delete the videos because I don't want to look at myself.
he knows I'm not seeing my psychologist for another 6 weeks. And he feels I need more support.
I just couldn't stop crying.
he wants me to see my doctor ASAP and tell him how I'm feeling.

I just don't know anymore 😢

Hi @BlueBay 😀

That sounds a little weird for your physio to video you doing the exercises. Did she explain why? I have never seen myself in a video, ever. But I hate my photos, so maybe thats similar. We can be so critical of ourselves, cant we? We always see what we consider to be our faults. Where as, others seeing that video would likely see the whole thing, and not be blind to the good parts.

I am so pleased that your exercise physiologist is so perceptive and caring. He is probably right that its a good idea to get in to see your GP sooner rather than later. You clearly need more support than what you are currently getting. So much has changed in your household since you last saw your psych.

Thinking of you.

Sherry 😀💕

Thank you @Former-Member xxoo

the reason was so I could watch it and do the exercises at home.

I will ring my doctor tomo and make an appt

ohhh my sister @BlueBay

sending you a understanding hugs

i would not like to see a video of me either @Former-Member , @BlueBay

photos are bad enough

I'm so disgusted with my body @Shaz51 @Former-Member

I don't think I can look at these videos.

The Physio videoing you sounds unnecessarily harsh to me @BlueBay. I wouldn't like that done to me ..... you are going there for support, not to have your self-esteem put under that sort of pressure ..... gee whiz !!

Can you ask her not to do that again, because you struggle with depression and it was too confronting for you to cope with ? If she can't respect that, I would be looking for someone else .....

Thsnks @Faith-and-Hope @Shaz51 @Former-Member @Maggie

my exercise physiologist is calling me today to check on me.
I'm going to see if he can explain to the physio my depression and body image issues.
I was ok when she did it. It wasn't until I replayed it alone thst I broke down.
I just feel very flat and have a huge hate of my body.

@BlueBay

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