not feeling good

❤️ @Former-Member

im sitting outside on the deck. The birds are chirping away.
I don't know Whst I want snymire.
I'm crying as I'm typing.

I went to the pharmacy to pick up my pack and I saw customers thst I kniw.
I felt really angry and hurt at how I lost my job.

then I saw the new owner at the other store and I felt so much snger. Do you know he asked my friend to ask me if I want to go back and help out for two weeks!!!! What nerve does this guy have. Does he realise ehst he did to me 4 days before Christmas. He took away my job. He took my confidence and my love to wirk with great people and customers.
Hiw dare he now ask me to wirk because he's short staffed. I told my friend a few swear words and she was totally on my side.

my house is so chaotic. Son dkeeping because of night shift. Granddaughter making noise as a 2yr old does.

I need to get for a while. I need to think about my life and how to cope.
I'm so stressed 😥

@Former-Member @Faith-and-Hope @Shaz51 @Maggie @Molliex and others I've forgotten

Dear @BlueBay ... I am really happy to hear that you are sitting out on your deck and hearing birds chirping. Not good to hear about all the tears though. 😔

Hey I honestly do not blame you one bit about feeling so angry with the new owners of the pharmacy you used to work at. What a hide to ask if you wanted a couple of weeks work! I too would feel justifiably angry and deeply hurt, given the circumstances. However ... and this is a big however ... work is work, and work is damned hard to come by right now with so many people being put off. Its possible that after a couple of weeks work, you may even be offered more work. Perhaps they realise the error of what they've done, in losing you. I have no doubt at all that your former customers would have been asking why you are no longer there. With all the coronavirus scare right now, pharmacy's are one of the few industries which will increase in business. I would expect it to be a safe job, if it was to turn out that way. So perhaps let the initial hurt and fury settle and then give this offer a little more thought.

Getting out of the house to work, would also relieve you of some of the constant stresses and strains of a chaotic home life for you right now. This offer could be just what you need. Whether or not it results in a permanent position, even a short term respite from 'home life' could be very beneficial for you.

I'm not trying to tell you what to do BlueBay ... just suggesting that it may require more thought once the initial flood of emotions has settled.

Any chance of getting out for a nice long walk today, and maybe a coffee shop for a relaxing break?

Sherry 💕

@Former-Member has some sensible advice there @BlueBay, but of course it depends on how you feel about it, and whether you could size up to going back ? I reckon the minute you put your foot out of their door they realised their mistake in letting you go, and I bet the customers have been asking after you ❣️ Up to you though ..... I hear you and feel for you, and it's good that you are venting here about how it made you feel. That is all part of the healing.

Thanks @Faith-and-Hope @Former-Member ❤️❤️
I know Whst you're saying about my old job. I would def go bsvk but I know he's not going to give me more hours after this worker comes bsvk from isolation.
I was very hurt by the fact that I lost my lost.
and also I'm starting new job next week. Yeah I know customers have asked about me.

Oh .. I didnt know you had heard back about the bakery job @BlueBay . Last I heard, you had not had any further word.about if or when you were to start. Sounds like you have now been given a start date. Thats good .. Im glad about that.

Sherry 😀💕

@Former-Member

Yeah I got told the other day. But you know I'm not very excited to start.
im really flat about a lot of things at the moment thst a new job is not exciting.

I just got a copy of roster and manager put me on for only one day. Which is not ehst she told me originally. I've sent her a msg. Waiting for reply.

how are you tiday? Have you done anything much today? ❤️

hi @Former-Member @Faith-and-Hope @Shaz51 @Maggie @Molliex @Zoe7 abd others
My house is crazy this morning

A is having a tantrum. She grabbed my glasses and wouldn't give them back. When I grabbed them off her she went to scratch my face. My D out her in a room and said you go snd day sorry. She refused do had a tantrum.
my older son cracked it and walked out to work. Then my D cracked it with him and says "I'm moving out". She csnt she has no money.
her ex is not paying child support.
sfter a good 5 min she eventually cane and said sorry and gave me a hug.
I wanted to go fir a walk but now I need to go fruit shop so I'll try to walk later.

it's just so hard.
everythibg feels such a stressful mess.
I feel if only I could go away alone and things would settle down.
but it's not.

I'm feeling overwhelmed angry and always on the verge of crying.

There is so much tension and stress in your home right now @BlueBay ... of course its hard. For all of you.

I hope you can sort out your work roster soon. One day is not much at all, so I hope this is just a settling in period and you will be offered more. I'm glad you have decided to give this job a go. I realise you have heard some bad things about working there, but you should not believe all you hear. Go there, do your job the best you can (I know you will) and see how it all pans out. You can always leave if you find it unbearable. But at least you are giving it a go. And I am sure your MH will benefit from being out of the 'pressure cooker' of home life, even just for a day a week. Hang in there.

Sherry 😊💕

Thanks @Former-Member ❤️

I can't do this anymore

it's just too much

I don't want to do anything anymore

I would rather stay in bed and hide away 😢😢

Maybe give yourself a two hour "holiday stay" in bed @BlueBay ..... with some music, cup of tea, and a magazine ..... and Do Not Disturb sign on the door ..... or take a bath ..... find a way to self-care on the crazy-home days. It's what I do to help me get through.