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not feeling good

not feeling good

At the moment i am not feeling good. i feel like my body is in 'run away mode'. i feel my body is running on a high, my head is so mixed up. i have to go to bed and try to sleep, but don't know if i can.

my hormones are everywhere at the moment; my mood is sky high negative. i can't deal with this anymre. all of a sudden i am not feeling good. i think it is anxiety.

i don't know why i feel like this; i just want to cry but can't becsue everyone is home. i am going to bed. i don't know what is going on. actually maybe it is anxiety because i felt like passing out today.

I went to my GP to have my mirena IUD taken out as I had had enough. But he couldn't find the string, so he sent me for a ultrasound. Had that and the guy said i had two fibroids and a cyst on my ovary. but he couldn't find the string either, so had to have an xray to find the metal piece. they didn't tell me anything. but while waiting i was so anxious i almost passed out.

so now i have to wait for tomorrow when my GP will call me at work and let me know what will happen now. hopefully he can take the mirena out. i don't know.

my body is reacting to my anxiety - i feel so shaky, i need to stop. no point telling anyone at home becasue (a) they won't believe me and (b) they prob wouldn't care.

sorry, i had to tell someone. i feel so alone 😞

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hi @Former-Member @Angels333 @Shaz51 @Molliex @MDT @Maggie @Owlunar and others following
Another night of restless sleep and awake since 5.30am. I'm going from one extreme to niw the other of disturbed dleep. I can't work it out.
I'm lsying here on the couch feeling damn useless. I feel like I'm second class to others. I read what people write and I can't even write properly. I hear others talk in groups and they use words that I never use. Makes me feel so inadequate 😢

I'm really teary today msybe lack of dleep.
Saw my psychologist this morning. I was there on time. She wasn't told thst I was there so I only had 35 mins instead of one hour. Annoyed. Had so much to say. Oh well doesn't matter anymore.
I don't know how to feel. I'm still waiting for my psych to email back reg meds. Two days now and I'm getting angry. Maybe I shoukd email agsin becayse today's Friday snd I won't hear back on the weekend.
wish I could scream. Gosh I feel shit. Don't care about friends anymore. Going to hibernate at home from now on. I don't want to see anyone.

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@BlueBay I’m sorry your day is awful. An email about your meds might be worth it. Sometimes they get overlooked or go to junk mail.

Sending some 💜💜💜💜💜

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Thankyou @Maggie

guess what? I emailed my psych agsin and he will see me this Tuesday. Which is really good because my reg appt isn't until May. That's too far away. So I'm glad he listened.
I'm now seeing my dietitian. Not sure how that will go.

the weather out there is very humid and it's getting dark so I think a storm is on it's way.
I'm so self destructive and no self esteem at the moment. I just don't care.
anyway how are you? I keep forgetting to ask you I'm sorry. It's always about me.

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@BlueBay I’m glad about your psych.👍👍

Its really warm and humid here atm. Struggling with motivation here too, so don’t feel alone there.

Hope the dietician goes ok. Take care. ❤️❤️

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@Former-Member @Maggie @Angels333 @Shaz51 @Owlunar @MDT abd others

I saw my dietitian and I HATE telling him what I eat. He must think I'm a big fat pig. Next appt I'm going to tell him thst I hate it so much. I feel he's judging me and it's bad what I'm eating.
Im a failure in all areas.
I don't feel like continuing.
why should I?

i need to find a job and I can't even do thst right

what have I done in my life to deserve this

I'm a freak out there with no life

no structure no care no nothing

my head is terrible my thoughts are really bad

I'm bad.
I don't want to go on

I wish I never lost my job. I know it's not me It's not personal

but bloody hell this has rocked me so much

dietitian said the longer I leave it the worse it will be

I just want to go away

never speak to anyone

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Hi @BlueBay
It sounds as though today has been challenging for you. Those feeling of shame can sometimes make it harder to connect with others and also make it more difficult to care for oneself. I wonder what you have planned for your afternoon now that you've had your dietitian's appointment?

If you think that talking to someone might help you might contact one of the services below:

Lifeline: 13 11 14 or Crisis Chat

Suicide call back service: 1300 659 467 or online counselling

Take care Bluebay

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Sitting with you @BlueBay as you continue to work your way through all this. No need to talk, just know I care and I am here for you.

I cannot agree with you about being a failure though. From all I know of you .. I believe you have triumphed over so much adversity throughout you life. I see you as a survivor and someone to be admired.

Sherry 💕

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Thankyou @Former-Member @Former-Member

I can't find a job. I'm looking every single day.
im scared

I'm very very anxious

I'm panicking

I've registered with job places

I'm sick of looking

I'm too old

I'm not in a good frame gosh I hate it all

I WANT TO SCREAM

I need to go away

i just can't cope 😢😊

you know the fear is huge

I can't take this anxiety snymore

i wish I never lost my job

I wish we had money 😢😢😢

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I know @BlueBay ... and I wish for all those things on your behalf too. Wish it were that easy, but of course it isnt. All I can say is that I have faith in you BB.

Sherry 💕

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Hi Bluebay,

Those feelings are obviously really intense for you right now.
I'm going to send you an email shortly to check that you're ok there.

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