not feeling good

my sister @BlueBay sending you hugs xx

your husband could be feeling bad inside but he might be putting on a front for you

Yeah msybe @Shaz51

im sure he is worried and stressed

sure he maybe my sister @BlueBay

see how he is after and take small steps for both of you xoxo

@Shaz51 @Maggie @MDT @Owlunar @Former-Member @Gazza75 abd others following

Well today is my first day of unemployment 😢

gosh that sounds horrible

sitting outside on the deck having a coffee crying. The birds are whistling away.

I don't have to get ready fir wirk. I'm going to have to stay busy.

but trouble is I have no motivation

I don't care about doing stuff

I should go fir my walk but

it's going to feel different and it is different. No routine no getting things done before work no makeup etc etc

I better go. I don't feel like talking right now. 😢😢

@BlueBay 💕🍀🌺🌻

@BlueBay 💙💙💙

Hi everyone

I saw my psychologist and doctor this morning.
my pain in my hip is not getting better. The psin is travelling down to my calf.
dr not sure but X-ray shows some inflammation and tear in my hip. No fracture. Wants me to do more physio.
as for my mental health - it's a struggle.
I feel so unmotivated. Can't be bothered. I'm pushing mysekf to do house stuff eg washing clothes and sweeping and cooking.
my little A is over atm and she thinks my legs are a horse. Not great fir the hip!! Better stop her.
I don't believe in myself. Have no confidence in doing things.
maybe I shoukd wtite a list of jobs fir the day.

you know right now my son is so rude I could just drive off. My mental state is not good and I get treated like shit. I tell him something and he replies really rude. He should know better.
I so hate it.
my psychologist is trying to help me eith confidence and seeing how staying alone at home is not good. My mind goes instantly to being very negative and thoughts of self harm.
i used lifeline last night. helps a little.
@Maggie @Former-Member @Shaz51 @Owlunar @MDT abd others following

@BlueBay It takes time adjusting to a change in lifestyle. Maybe you are being a bit unrealistic and expecting to much to soon. You might need to rest, after all you are going into hospital in the near future. Pain will also affect your mental health.

I know it’s hard to go easy on yourself, but you are doing your best, no one can expect more of you. Take care @BlueBay 💙💙💙💙

hugs my sister @BlueBay

I had blood tests and a ultra scan today after fasting for 9 hours

Mr shaz is talking non stop about his bipolar 11 tonight

sooo tired

xoxoxo

@Maggie, @Former-Member , @MDT , @Owlunar