not feeling good

heyyyy my @MDT

When do you get results @Shaz51

eatly night for you my sis

take care xxxx

Morning my friends @MDT @Shaz51 @Maggie @Former-Member @Owlunar and others following

this mirning I decided to not go fir my walk. It's too Smokey and my asthma has flared up.

Have an appt at 10am at the hospital to see if i can do outpatient program. At least I can do something while home. Thdn this afternoon I'm seeing my exercise guy fir a plan on what to do this year reg exercise and gym wirk.

then off to my Chiro fir a much beeddd adjustment.

tomorriw I'm using my Xmas voucher from older son to have a massage. Cant wait.

Friday I'm seeing optometrist for check up snd new reading glasses.
in the afternoon I'm seeing my dietitian. That is much needed as my eating disorder is a bit out of control.

So busy rest if week.

hope everyone has a nice day. ❤️❤️❤️

Sounds like a busy week @BlueBay , which is probably a good thing.

Ive read that Melb have really bad air quality right now with smoke coming in from East Gippsland fires. You are right to avoid outdoor exertion for now. I hope you are able to get into the outpatient program. Its good to see that you are using this down time constructively.

Sherry 👍💕

Hi @BlueBay

It's wise to stay inside while the air is so smoky - I had a bad cough yesterday and felt really exhausted - I went to the pharmacy in the afternoon and got some cough medicine and that has helped a lot - maybe it would help you too if you have asthma - as do I.

A new framework of activity seems to be starting - I remember when I had a huge change in my life I didn't know what to do at first - really strange feeling - but regular life soon took up it's demands and reality set in - life does go on and you are finding this out now

That black-and-white thinking you have does take over - life is never all black or all white - you are not unemployed - you are between jobs - you might ask what the difference is but it's plain to me - you have plans - you need a spell in hospital and when you get out you will be looking for work and that can be a full-time job - it's a bit harder because of the fires - the ecomony will take a hit for a while - but life will pick up again - it's not as disastrous as it seems - just a huge challenge and your BPD makes it all seem worse than it is

But if you hold onto being okay you will be - maybe you need to redefine "okay" - nothing is ever perfect -

But your son doesn't need to be rude to you - that is not acceptable behaviour -

And pain will seem to be worse when the air is so smoky - I understand that - it's time to take things easy for lots of reason

Thinking of you though - all the time

Dec

@MDT @Former-Member @Owlunar @Shaz51 @Maggie
I've hit a huge slump

im exhausted and feel sick

i feel weak

my body is aching

my throat is sore and coughing

I think it's all catching up on me

saw the hospital outpatient psychologist this morning

she is putting me down fir a fruday group. Works on ACT.

im sorry I'm really exhausted. Can't even type. I'll be back tomo.

sending you tender hugs my sister @BlueBay and sitting with you xxxxxx

@Shaz51 @MDT @Owlunar @Former-Member @Maggie @Gazza75 @Molliex and others

Yesterday was a very exhausting day. From falling to sleep at midday fir a while m, then again at 4 and crashing again after tea. Maybe I need a blood test to check my iron.
I woke up at 6am still not refreshed.
ive got my walking clothes on so I should go out. It's not smoky tiday.

so yesterday - when I saw my exercise guy he was and still is supportive. He wants me to go to do a gym program. We then just talked about my walking, hip pain, my mentsl health. He wants to keep seeing me just fir chats and touch base in exercises.
I then had a Chiro appt. he decided to do Accupuncture on my hip. It was a little sore but ok. He left them in there fir a good 10 mins.
last night it was sore. Seeing him again in two weeks. I did have two ribs out and pelvis out which didn't my hip.

I better go fir my walk. If I don't go now I won't go and I'll go back to bed.

I hope everyone is ok. I'm sorry I don't reply to each post. I'm struggling Whst to say to others on here. I don't feel confident to reply like others do. I read others replies and think wow they're writing and what they write us amazing. I can never write so well.
that's where I then feel so not a good person and disadvantage because if my English. I feel really terribly that I can't even have a conversation on here where I feel ok. I feel so unintelligent.
I better fir my walk. Need to clear my mind. ❤️❤️❤️