not feeling good

Sitting with you @BlueBay

Please take your meds, it only makes things worse for you if you dont take them. You mentioned that you spoke to your Dr earlier. Did you tell them that you were not taking your meds? Any advice?

You have a good understanding and repoire with your dietician, would it help to see or speak with them?

Sherry 💖

@Former-Member I wasn't thinking right early this afternoon. Rang my doctor and he suggested I tske my meds.
I am seeing my exercise physiologist tomorrow and dietitian Friday. They both have been very supportive of my mental health.

I'll take tonight's med
why do I do this?

You do it because it helps @BlueBay .... and well done to you. 😀

Im glad both your ex phys and dietician have been helpful to you. Allow them to help you through.

Sherry💕

Way to go @BlueBay

Keep taking your meds please

Sigh @BlueBay

You didn't take you medication but you told us, rang your doctor, went for a walk and took your tablets - that doesn't sound stupid to me - actually it sounds pretty good.

I'm still getting over the tough patch I had so my guess is that you still need too give yourself time and be kind to yourself

You don't need to cry out for help now - you have just shown that you can reach out and ask for it as you did yesterday - well done - I'm proud of you

You do know what you want - you want to be able to get on with your tasks at home and at work an be treated with respect - we all want that

I hope you sleep well and wake up feeling better

Dec

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Hi @Owlunar i disappoint myself so much. I get so angry with myself. I know I do it. And it's getting to be more often now that I'm stopping. I really don't know Whst to do. People tell me "just take them" if only it was that easy. For me at the moment it's a self sabotage thing. It's hard to explain.
I'm being very honest here - I do it to self harm myself. Is it payback? I don't know. Maybe. Maybe in my head I think - stuff everyone I know how it feels to have BPD and this is one bad thing I do. I get so messed up in my head.
Ok I'm angry. At my brother more so than the other two guys. But then my neighbour must have planned it out to do what he did.
So I need to let it go. There's something in me thst is struggling to let go.
fear. Yes so much fear. Guilt. Why me.
I need it to stop. I can't keep going like this.
I wish I coukd get a hug from you. No one else gives me hugs. I want to feel protected loved cared. 😢😢

im sorry. I'm just not good this mirning.
ive got a lot of sciatica psin. Physio says I've got bursitis on my hip. Pain goes down my leg from my back. I can't sleep on that side. Walking hurts. So much for exercise.
Things always feel like nothing is getting brighter or better.

Hi everyone @Owlunar @Shaz51 @Former-Member @MDT and others following

i saw my exercise physiologist this afternoon. He was asking me how I was after last week emotional breakdown. We finished the group today but he is going to take me on as a one on one for however long it takes. I thought I wouldn't see him anymore and therefore stop the exercises but he said he won't get rid of me.
I couldn't do any gym class today as my back and hip is giving me trouble.
even walking is hurting. So I have to do light stretches and a small walk but no more.
I'm seeing my dietitian tomorrow after work. This will be interesting as I've gotten worse eith my eating. Will see what happens.
I'm very lucky to have such great support at the community centre. All of them working at the same place.
the psychologist is free. The dietitian is $10 sbd the exercises and physio are $6 fir an hour. All fantastic support.

I don't know either @BlueBay but maybe deep inside where you can't reach you are afraid that if you stop self-sobotaging behavior you will get well and stand on your own two feet and although you want that it's unknown country and it's scary

Maybe we would all like to be protected and cared for but in adult life we have to care about ourselves and as for love - yes - we all need to be loved and to have someone to love. But in truth we have to learn how to love ourselves to be sure of it

You know already you have to let your mother and your abusers go - that doesn't mean those things didn't matter - they do - but holding onto the past is destroying you and that's not good - it's all stopping you from living your life to your capacity

Sending mire hugs

Dec 🦉

I've tried three support places and all busy or not open yet.
hard to get help these days 😢

no wonder people give up