not feeling good

It's definitely hard @BlueBay

Hang in there as best you can 🙂

I'm very angry

I'm so p..... off

I need to disappear

I need to go now

I am a failure

hopeless and helpless

Hi @BlueBay
I'm sorry that those feelings have come up for you again this afternoon.

As a gentle reminder, if you're concerned about your safety right now or you'd like some counselling support, you can contact the following services:

Lifeline 13 11 14

Suicide Callback Service 1300 659 467

Please take good care today Bluebay and do reach out for support if you need that for yourself.

@Former-Member

I'm really angry at a lot of things. It's all coming up at once in my head

I can't stop it

I'm so overwhelmed with anxiety

i can't think right now

I want to go away I want to disappear

Hi @BlueBay
I'm sorry the feelings are so intense right now. Is posting on the forums helping you to manage your anger and anxiety?
I will email you shortly if you can check your inbox.
Take care

Hi @BlueBay

I know - it's all coming at you at once, - it must be exhausting

So - the..most important thing you have to do is breathe so close you eyes and take a deep breath and think

If you did go away and disappear - what then? What would that achieve and

what would you do next?

You would still be the same person with the same stuff so it seems to me you have to continue from where you are now - you have the right to feel frustrated and anger - trying to get help at this time of the year is difficult

Keep trying to reach out for the help you need and

You are seeing your team tomorrow I think

We are all here to support you

Dec 🦉

Hi @Former-Member @Owlunar

it's my stupid BPD thinkibg snd behaviour

it's taking over

I HATE BPD

Of course it's your BPD and it's rotten - who would want that?

Still that's what you have to deal with ☹

I understand - you have no control over your emotions but when it comes to how you act - wow!! - all this chaos in your life for months and as rough as it has been and you are still here toughing it out

Tonight though you need to talk it over with someone in your team - okay - that's what it seems like

But your emotions can swing up again when time passes

But hard yards - you are a battler

Dec 🦉

@BlueBay

I'm not seeing anyone support until Tuesday when I see my psychologist @Owlunar not seeing anyone tomorrow.
I think the past month has caught up eith me

I'm Mentally exhausted

my BPD is not rational and it's extreme

I don't know anymore

I'm tired of trying

Hi again @BlueBay

I know BPD isn't reasonable and you are feeling as if you are in a washing machine 🌀not fun

But as much as I wish I could do something useful to help all I can do is suggest you get onto the CAT and talk to them

Dec