not feeling good

Hi @Decadian

I am sorry to hear you are having a tough time, and its quite normal to feel like you do with an anniversary coming up- I had one last Friday.

I've had sinus problems the last week too and I was really sick with it over the weekend and up until yesterday- I still feel a bit sick but I always seem to be worse first thing in the morning.

I hope you can do some nurturing things for you @Decadian I enjoy reading your posts and how well you relate to others and how kind you are too. You need to be kind to you too.

everythingn is just shit at the moment. if it's not one thing it's another. i can't cope anymore;

@Decadiansorry i haven't replied back to you, i know you have helped me so many times but at the moment my life is crap, nothing is good. i am sorry you don't feel good with your sinuses and the anniversary. my heart goes out to you @Decadian; you have been so kind to me over the time and i really appreciate when you chat to me.

Same as @Former-Member and @Change123 thanks for trying to help, but maybe it's too late to help me. maybe it's my stupid bl..dy BPD and crap behaviour that is never going to get better.

i am never going to ring the cat team again never. her first response to me was 'oh you have phoned quite a bit lately'; yeah they probably have my name highlighted as a 'mental case psycho' who wants attention.

@CherryBombi am so overwhelmed tonight. there is something else i haven't mentioned - my daughter has a new boyfriend who suffers high anxiety and hasn't worked for quite a few months. she is over there almost every single night; he hasn't come to our hosue for about 3 months. it doesn't matter, don't worry, no one wants to know my crap, it doesn't matter, i am really sorry @CherryBomb

Thanks @Former-Member

don't know if anyone can help me anymore; i am really sorry

@BlueBay

What are you doing tomorrow?

@Former-Member

i have to go to work. i am so hoping that the private hosital ring tomorrow to say i can go in on friday. i just can't do this anymore. i am sorry for bothering you, i just need to talk to someone who cares and i know you do. xxx

@BlueBay

You are not bothering me at all- and of course I care!!

I hope you are able to go into the clinic on Friday ~ are you packed ready to go in? I found what as helped me was also preparing to go in too. Have you had any dinner tonight and what would help you get ready for some sleep?

Just go back to basics that helps me too, and what do you think you need atm?

Hi @Former-Member

I am going to go to bed soon, think i need some sleep. thank you for heling me, i realy appreciate your help.

i'm just so upset lately, tonight i am so emotional. ok one step one thing at a time.

There's no need to apologise @BlueBay, and you're not bothering anyone on here!

You mentioned that your daugher has a boyfriend with anxiety - are you worried about this?

@CherryBomb

there's so much stress at home. hubby not happy with him; i don't want to lose my daughter. now i am crying. i think i better go and come b ack on here another time.

my lifie is one big mess, so overwhelmed with life right now; i need a break; i will come back on tomorrow if i feel okay

No worries @BlueBay

I think sleep is a good idea, you need your rest to function tomorrow !!

Are you feeling a bit better?