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not feeling good

At the moment i am not feeling good. i feel like my body is in 'run away mode'. i feel my body is running on a high, my head is so mixed up. i have to go to bed and try to sleep, but don't know if i can.

my hormones are everywhere at the moment; my mood is sky high negative. i can't deal with this anymre. all of a sudden i am not feeling good. i think it is anxiety.

i don't know why i feel like this; i just want to cry but can't becsue everyone is home. i am going to bed. i don't know what is going on. actually maybe it is anxiety because i felt like passing out today.

I went to my GP to have my mirena IUD taken out as I had had enough. But he couldn't find the string, so he sent me for a ultrasound. Had that and the guy said i had two fibroids and a cyst on my ovary. but he couldn't find the string either, so had to have an xray to find the metal piece. they didn't tell me anything. but while waiting i was so anxious i almost passed out.

so now i have to wait for tomorrow when my GP will call me at work and let me know what will happen now. hopefully he can take the mirena out. i don't know.

my body is reacting to my anxiety - i feel so shaky, i need to stop. no point telling anyone at home becasue (a) they won't believe me and (b) they prob wouldn't care.

sorry, i had to tell someone. i feel so alone 😞

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I care @BlueBay

Today I feel as if I am swimming through jelly - I have a bad anniversary on Friday - my sinuses have cleared but my appetite has taken a hike - so I guess I know how drained you are feeling - cause I am too.

I really care how tidy the house is or isn't - whether the dishes are done - but I really could not care less

So I get it - I am with you - I wish I felt better - I wish I could think up something useful to say - I don't

But I care - I am seeing my therapist today - I hope I don't cry -

Thinking of you -

Dec

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Thank you @Change123 for your understanding.
I'm feeling so much pain today like cramping. Stressing about hospital stay, seeing the gyno, finances just everything. It's all getting on top of me.

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Hello @BlueBay, I CARE

Hello @Decadian, @Change123, @Former-Member, how are you today ??

Taking oesteo paracetamol now , the doctor said 2 tablets 3 times a day , what !!! so i am going to just take them when i need them

hubby` asleep ,

Hello @Former-Member, @-karma-, @NikNik

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Hi @Shaz51

I'm actually ok today, feeling a bit more inspired. I started a thread on a dffierent perspective to BPD & emotional discipline. No one has answered it but doesnt matter - just another way of overcoming BPD and emotional regulation. I guess my thoughts were instead of looking at it from MI perspective which makes it so much more challenging I have decided to look at it as another discipline I have to learn. I had put a link to a website that had some excercises (very simialr to DBT) but I thought I would try a different approach. Will see how that goes.

That pain med works well I use it for a stuffed knee I have, no cartilege left so just bone on bone and I have bad athritis in the bone from childhood injuries so I actualluy need a whole knee replacement which I will put off as long as possible.

Hope you are feeling better

Hi @BlueBay

In your case the cramping could be the mirena but I also find going through peri menopause that my cramps are much worse before hand and even though I havent now had a period for 3 months I still get cramping pain every now and then. I cant wait for the day it stops completely!!! Being in pain will make your emotional tolerance less so I find if I'm in a lot of pain my BPD acts up too. Not sure if you have had time to read but I put a post mainly incase it helps you about emotional discipline, let me know if you want to do this with me - we may be able to try this together and use eachother as encouragement - let me know what you think.

Take care and get some rest when you are home to help ease the pain.

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I can't think straight tonight. I'm s crying mess. I hate my life I'm at a dead end. I'm just a waste of space for dveryone.
I'm scared of doing something bad. I'm a mess.

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Hi @BlueBay

I'm really sorry to read you are struggling

I honestly wish I could do more for you

One step at a time

What helps to make you feel better?

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@BlueBay We are walking with you too

Remember you are precious and worthwhile

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Hi @BlueBay

It all sounds overwhelming. You're not a waste of space. Even though you think this, please remember they are just thoughts - it doesn't make them true.

I'm concerned about you. What's been happening today? Are you ok?

Will email you shortly, please check your email.

Stay safe,

CherryBomb

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Hi @Shaz51

I'm good

Just a bit tired this evening

I finished my training today at the zoo, and we have presentations next week.

How are you?

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I so f####ng hate the CAT team. Treat me like shit. Like I'm dumb. All I wanted was help and support and what did I get / - a stupid lady on the phone telling me to distract myself and speak to my treating psych. Well wtf dues she think I was doing. He hasn't returned my calls.
So over mental health system. It is crap
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