not feeling good

Your welcome @BlueBay

I feel like hibernating at times myself.

I can only imagine how draining it is on you to keep doing it. as @Owlunar said maybe you can look at doing more down the track, but, not right now. Give yourself some time and see how you feel. The hospital psychologist sounds like a better option to Me. It takes a lot of courage and strength to overcome and keep going like you do BB. Don't give in to the urges of sh.

I agree with @Zoe7 @BlueBay

You are allowing those abusers to take over your life and truly - they do not care at all - they probably do not even think about it

It did happen - and you don't need to forgive them - but you only have one life to live and this is it - this needs to be your aim - to get past this - it is holding you up from knowing what you really want in this world

And I really care

Dec

Hi @BlueBay

It is nice to see that you are heard and supported by forum friends @Owlunar @Gazza75 @Zoe7 @Former-Member who all have their own ideas about the usefulness of revisiting traumatic experiences in the course of therapy. As you know already – the decisions about what you do in therapy and what does or doesn't work for you are decisions for you to make – preferably in consultation with professionals whose judgement you trust.

I wonder if you schedule a bit of time to do something nice for yourself after you have an appointment with your psychologist?

@Former-Member is right @BlueBay

You can continue with this type of exposure therapy - but it is a hard way to go and you are wondering if there is any end to it

And I am concerned to that you want to hibernate from your family - I can certainly understand that it is overwhelming to have so many people living together in such a small space - not something I would enjoy at all -

You must be in so much pain - so much disorder in your mind - so much unhappiness - I hear you

We want the best for you - I am glad you have reached out and hope you can find some peace today - I have no objection at all to someone going to bed for the rest of the day when they feel so bad - hibernation from the family isn't bad or wrong - lonely perhaps but you need the peace right now

Dec

I have to agree with @Gazza75 here Hon. and @Former-Member my sister @BlueBay

Hi @BlueBay

Sitting here with my sister

The only way forward is raise above all the negative feelings and especially the shame. The best revenge you can have on anyone is to be happy. I know you're a lovely person and you deserve nothing but happiness. One step at a time- even if it is just small positive steps. rest when you can and eat nutritious meals...

Hi @BlueBay , just wanted to check in with you today. I hope you are feeling better. Not sure if you are working or not. Take care. 🙂

Hi @BlueBay

You have been quiet since the other day - it must have seemed as if we were all talking at once when you posted about your visit to the therapist - I think we were all glad you are thinking that the therapy you are having is dragging your down - exhausting you - and I see little progress myself and wonder if you are being helped to overcome the distress you are naturally feeling

I hope you are taking it easy - that your crowded house is allowing you some privacy - that work is okay - that you are just chilling out a bit

We all care about you - I read what other people wrote - people really care about you here - people are really supportive

Hearing you

Dec

I'm wondering how you are feeling @BlueBay

I guess you are at work - and that you feel really bruised and unhappy after your visit to your therapist - it really stirred you up

We really care about you here - I think we can see you so clearly because your writing really touches us - we can see and we can't heal your pain - how we wish we could

But we are here supporting you the best way we can - and although we all have our ideas of what might be the best for you it is your choice to do whatever therapy seems right for you -

But it is tough - sending my best thoughts

Dec

I always find that flowers heal my heart when it hurts

@BlueBay