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HistoryloverSenior Contributor
Guys, I'm in so much emotional pain at the moment that the thought of keeping going for more of the same just seems pointless. I don't have a life worth living and won't ever have. I've tried everything and no-one in the real world can do anything to help me fix my life. It's just too big a mess. I don't know what to do. I'm so tired of hurting. Existence isn't life.
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HistoryloverSenior Contributor
There's nothing else for me now, @creative_writer. I can wrestle with this or with everything else. There's no reprieve anywhere for me.
I watched a few videos and one was a debate between a Christian and a Muslim. Very interesting. It seems that these arguments will go on for ever.
Thank you for your input but it seems that I'm always rowing against the tide. I might have an early night. Tomorrow is another day. Good (early) night here, I think.
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HistoryloverSenior Contributor
So very tired of all these battles, @Appleblossom. Three years of trying to understand my ex-psy and the deep trauma and absolute confusion he inflicted on me, which continues; now I'm embroiled in trying to understand religion, and that debate has been going on for millennia. I thought it would be a slam dunk. My kingdom for some peace!!
Feeling miserable at the moment. 8.01pm and I'm thinking of turning in.
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creative_writerSenior Contributor
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AppleblossomSenior Contributor
@Historylover ... not many slam dunks here ... weary sigh. I have just settled on it being unlikely I will pin it down. Friend with Phd ... learned Greek and became a scholar .. he'd had a big conversion away from alcohol and became a Mormon. NOw he is distancing himself from that particular style. It is complicated. I knew another with theology degree who became atheist. Go in as deep as you feel is a genuine effort for you, but it should not be torturous and get in way of living a good life.
Dropped offline and was happy playing bass recorder ...
Yes to good art and music ... bringing out the best for the highest good ...cant complain about that.
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HistoryloverSenior Contributor
@Appleblossom, @creative_writer, hey there you guys, just a quick note to say I feel that I have turned a corner today. A sleepless night trying to turn off my mind, but this morning is all good. I can see the road ahead, and I will have to take it slowly. I think I took the U-turn too sharply!! Thanks to you both for your input and help with my over-steering.
I feel like a grub today without running water. Looks lovely outside. Have a good one!!
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hanamiSenior Contributor
@Historylover so good to read this!
I so hope things continue this way.
Wishing you a wonderful day,
Hanami
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AppleblossomSenior Contributor
@Historylover Hugs! even if you are grub! They have rights too ... if they behave properly in the garden ...
Gently Bently ... like the U turn ...idea.
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HistoryloverSenior Contributor
Thank you @hanami. I hope you had a wonderful day too.
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HistoryloverSenior Contributor
I see the road ahead like never before, @Appleblossom. Thank you. Taking it gently with my Bentl(e)y. 🚗
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AppleblossomSenior Contributor
Just had a thought about the grub thing and cultural differences. @Historylover
Sharing it with the hope it gives you a smile ... the Buddhists tend to be stronger about grubs rights than the Christians ... tho it is not absolute and may be sentimental as I know there is a lot of variation in both spiritual traditions. The Buddhists do not preach Faith or Belief as such but I have found some of their practices helpful as meditation.
Hope you are still feeling clearer and can enjoy the week ahead. I am feeling better. I had a few curly weeks myself in and out of trauma mode.
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