“I don’t need people” state of mind

Hi @creative_writer

I say my days are like "Burning Daylight".

The end of the day comes and l think i have wasted the whole day. I do what l have to. I have a printing factory. Stuff everywhere. I work alobe so no one to inspire me. So taking the excess to the market and selling stuff is helping my mind.

I feel the same exhaustion you mention.

Hence me saying l watch tv.

I agree you should leave the house for short steps. I enjoy a short walk around the block. I say hello to people and continue.

So i agree. Slowly slowly.

I never said refrain from the past completely. Your past made you who you are. Lessons learnt will help others when you are ready.

Write notes of special times or references.

I do hear you seem concerned of others judging you. You cannot stop them. Do not feed them with information to use.

I am lucky because l think l do my best, try and hel others, and unless l need correcting, i do not care how others judge me.

You sound gentle and caring.

We can never please everyone.

Why do you focus so much on what others think?

I hope at uni you will find at least one to sit with.

Hi @creative_writer

I will take a chance here.

Have you read Desiderata:

Do not be put off by God in one part

https://www.desiderata.com/desiderata.html

It is also a song you may have heard

https://youtu.be/6X8YnCq6UME

Hi @creative_writer

I cannot believe your wisdom in writing.

I laugh with you

I heard a Sermon on "Unlearning"

You are spot on. We have to unlearn things bought on us. Times have changed to. Single women could not keep their children. Culture did not allow it. That had to be "unlearned" it is not true.

With my faith we are told we will be tested but not broken. Sometimes that is knowing our limits.

Sometimes we need to sit in the other seat and listen to our own advice.

You seem to have the correct formulas.

Do not focus on yesterday.

Do you think you can walk around the block tomortow for 5 minutes and smell the roses. At a snails pace. Think about your steps or the gardens. So much to look forward to if we focus on today.

Today l say. Tomorrow has its own challenges and has not begun. Day by day.

Do you like Desiderata?

Hi @creative_writer

Dezsiderata. Affirmations. I thought it was older, but excellent words in 1927 that are relevant to me today.

The women reference was about Unlearning Cultural expectations.

I agree tomorrow is another day. I may load my car and sell at Sunday market. This is so far away from my safety zone. But it is a forward step to getting somewhat back to my previous productive life.

Funny, walking around the block during covid l met one neighbour in particular. She thinks she has so many bad things happenjng. I think if only you knew mine. But she, like others is only worried about her issues. The point of me telling you this is, it got me out, i know she wants someone to listen to her and l do not have to talk about me. So l can only be judged as a good listener.

If you venture out, i would like to hear what you did.

You know what to do.

Dont stop yourself from having 5 minutes away from the past

Hugs @creative_writer . I hear it hurts.

We are sitting with you in this discomfort and by doing so, perhaps it will make it more bearable.