“I don’t need people” state of mind

Hi @creative_writer

Qualified or Unqualified the volunteer, or no one has the right to say (1) what caused it and (2) it was the devil.

I am not sure what your spritual direction is.

Sadlybin churches some people think they are God. They are hypocrites and a danger to vulnerable people. But it also happens outside the church.

You seem unsure how much to open to Counsellor. I met someone awhile ago. They refused to say anything about themselves. I also refused to about me. So we both stood there. You should give counsellor something to work with. Not everything. And if uncompfortable try another. I am sure you have done that.

So many people live by themselves. Me too. I always said if l want company l can go out. But usually l am happy by myself. Glad to see you socialising in this forum.

I say Stop finding problems with ourselves. That is what everyone else does telling us how to be.

I am a bit confused if you are lonely or if you think you should be a certain way that you may not meant to be.

It appears you chat in small groups or one on one. Does that bother you? I am the same and have no issue. Listen to the rubbish many big ego people talk in groups. I prefer our one on one chats. Maybe you think l am wrong. I am happy in peace

Hi @creative_writer

I seriously enjoyed the chat.

You have had a great response.

Why do you feel you cannot socialise?

You are excellent on this forum.

I am confused.

I hope you are not trying to be someone you are not. Your values and respect seem excellent. Wisdom not to overspeak.

Pat yourself on the back!

Sometimes l like to hide in a big group. I listen to the chit chat. Rarely engage. They are happy because they love talking about themselves. I am happy because l say little if anything.

I see you and l are comfortable in the environment that suits us.

Hi @creative_writer

Hmmm. I find the "right small group" more stimulating.

I agree with what you write.

What are you interests?

I collect things. I fix them. Now l sell them at.the markets.

I help my friend maintain.yard etc one hour away. They dont help me. So be it. I enjoy it.

I do watch a fair bit of tv in the background.

At the churches l was one of the camera operators.

What do you enjoy?

What works?

Hi @creative_writer

I have never spoken to you, but l must say, if you could speak as.well as you write you could be a lecturer, teacher, library story teller, anything.

I am only stepping out again and trying to be more social.

The annoying part is when i touch on what l went through, all the opinions come out and l go back to the peace solitude gives me. Why did l say anything?

Writing is your forte.

A friend was in a writing course.

Sensory overload. I had to tune out from the noise. Played good music or think of good things. It takes so much mindfulness to ignore " the noise" around us. Bad people, crazy drivers, abuse.

TV. Very broad. No violence. No law shows except Judge Judy. Seinfeld. Come dine with me. Masterchef because all are nice to each other.

I avoid like My Kitchen Rules because there are too many nasty people. I do not like nasty people.

Like the volunteer at your hospital. Whatever faith she is, she is nasty.

I have told you more about me than l have told anyone in a long time.

I haveca friend who is a retired police man. I enjoy my one on one with him. I have a big dislike to the Courts decisions. Bad people continue bad behaviour

@creative_writer

Mental health social work sounds like you.

I am on again off again Disability Support worker. Under Ndis you are more like an uber driver. So lost interest.

You refer your interests as crazy. You think sky diving, mountaineering etc is not crazy.

Behind each fictional character is a brainy writer. So l can see your interest. The writers of Bluey are clever.

I also like Penn and Teller Fool us.

Even on anonymous forums you have to be a bit careful. Or l should say respectful.

I feel you feel you need to empty out on all things. Keep some in. Take your time.

I hope the forum helps your MH