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❤️ So well done @BlueBay .....

You persevered despite the way you were feeling and kept yourself safe. You have secured a second opinion in regard to your meds, and have also secured the support you need for the weeks ahead to your new psych appointment ....

That took courage and strength.

No need to apologise at all. You have brought us joy, hearing how you have worked through this tough situation and do the things you needed to do to care for yourself, no matter how lousy you are feeling, you are succeeding in overcoming the effects of your past, and that is your achievement. It's a success.

Baby steps. You won't always feel so bad. You are moving through change and it will get better and better progressively.

Breathe. Trust. Believe.

❤️💕🐾🌸🎼🐚🌺🌿💙🐠💜🐢🐬🌷

Thank you @Faith-and-Hope

it means a lot to have so much support and not feel so alone. thank you xxxooo

Hi @BlueBay

It's good to get up in the morning and find that you have made it across the really bad place that was yesterday

It was fantastic to read how everyone cared so much and put up such great pics - this was fantastic to read and to see

I am really glad I joined this website and really so glad you did too

Good work @BlueBay and good work Forum Family too

Decadian

Hi @Decadian@utopia@pip @Change123@Former-Member

Any mods around?? Need to chat to a moderator (unless i am a problem person on here then i will not come back on)

I just never ever learn

When will I bl....dy learn and not do the same things over and over again .....

Today I called the CAT team and spoke to one of the clinicians. He went right off - telling me to not call all the time about my meds, to ring my own psych and GP and that they are not able to help me. he was talking for a while that i completely shut off what he was saying - because i startted to think that's it i am stupid, i will never ever ring them again and i don't care if i do .... to myself;

i asked him - so can i ring if i need support or am i not allowed to ring anymore. he said they are happy to chat with me when in crisis and need of support. well that's not what the really nice guy said to me on thursday night. so i take up this guys advice from the other night and i get an angry guy on the phone.

And it's all my fault.

when the hell will i learn.

i ended up falling to sleep because that's all i have been doing this weekend. up now and may go for a quick walk with hubby and a coffee down the street.

so - i am too scared to ring my own psych becasue he told me i ring 'too often' and now the CAT team.

i am trying so damn hard to get through this hump of emotional crap, feeling like no one cares, i am on my own and feeling like life is over.

is all my fault isn't it??

Hi @BlueBay

I am so sorry to hear that you had a terrible experience with that clinican, it sounds awful and confusing (but remember they are not all the same)

you have been very strong in asking for help and trying to promote your own wellness, i hope that you did go for a walk to get coffee with your husband

did you call lifeline also?

I am here for the next little bit, how can I help?

try not to think to far ahead @BlueBay, because of what has happened you have been overwhelmed with emotions and that is no time to plan, theorise on "why's or if's" of anything or consider the future, just try to focus on the moment and get through today

what strategies do you have for dealing with the moment?

when is your next appt with your psych?